Sinful

Chapter 2

Yesterday was no ordinary day. On the contrary, yesterday was miraculous.

Yesterday Tsukasa kissed Amane for the very first time ever. It was an unexpected kiss that took Amane’s breath away, it made his toes curl and it made Amane fall deeper in love with his brother. It was a kiss that could have lasted forever & it still wouldn’t have been long enough.

Yesterday Tsukasa said things he always wanted to hear, he said things Amane used to only dream about. Yesterday Tsukasa said he wanted to kiss him, he wanted to date him.

Yesterday Tsukasa called Amane “my love.”

Yesterday Amane thought Tsukasa might actually be falling in love with him.

Amane couldn’t keep the smile off his face, it appeared as soon as he woke up & it grew with each passing moment. As unbelievable as yesterday was, as miraculous as it seemed, today would be even better. Today they’re going on their first date, today they’d get to know each other in ways other than brotherly. Today is the beginning of Amane & Tsukasa as a couple, as boyfriends, and hopefully as lovers.

Time at home was odd, however. It felt the same, yet completely different. It felt comfortable, yet strangely awkward. It felt brotherly, yet sexually charged at the same time. They joked with each other, made fun of each other, cursed at each other just like normal. But they also looked longer and touched more, their eyes & hands unable to stay off that which they coveted.

Their mom was still sleeping when Amane kissed Tsukasa after breakfast. It was a quick kiss, a peck really, and Amane didn’t care that their mother was in the house. But Tsukasa did. It was dangerous, they could easily slip up and get caught if they weren’t careful. Tsukasa didn’t say it, but he was scared of what their mom would do to them, to Amane, if she found out.

Amane couldn’t really argue with his brother. As usual, Tsukasa made sense. They agreed with minimal talk that they wouldn’t carry on at home; they wouldn’t kiss, they wouldn’t touch. They’d control themselves and their urges. At home, they’d be just brothers.

But then Amane quietly pointed something out. In public, they were just brothers as well. So at home and in public they were just brothers. When could they be intimate? When could they be Amane & Tsukasa, boyfriends? When could they be Amane & Tsukasa…..lovers?

After a moment of consideration, Tsukasa smiled with raised eyebrows. He had a plan, a brilliant plan, he had it all figured out. They could be intimate when their mom wasn’t home, when they were somewhere no one knew who they were or when they were alone in their room. And if that wasn’t enough, if they still needed more, they’d come up with a new plan & new ways to be together.

“Trust me Amane, it’ll be fine. We’ll make it work, we just have to be discreet.”

Discreet. That was the same word Teru used when describing their relationship. Teru promised to be discreet…..and he was. Except when he tracked Amane down & kissed him in the road. Or when he talked to the shopkeeper about him. Or when he called Tsukasa Amane’s ‘boy toy’ before he even knew who he was. Discreet was a word Amane didn’t like, not one bit. And now Tsukasa was using the same word in the same way.

“Will you relax? Don’t I always have the best plans? Trust me”

Tsukasa misunderstood the look on his twin’s face and Amane wasn’t about to correct him. He wasn’t about to tell his brother, his love, that his words reminded him of another man. Amane rolled his eyes & shook his head. Despite Tsukasa’s history of fucked up plans, this one actually sounded promising…..not that he’d admit that to his brother, though. “No, Tsukasa, you don’t. I just can’t figure out which movie you got this idea from.”