01:50 am
I want to know what comes after this. To know if what seems impossible at this moment is will be possible ever.
"I want to feel him. To feel how he hugs me, to listen to the rhythm to his heart." These are just simple teenage thoughs. They are insignificant. They are forgettable. Although it feels so difficult. As much as I want to forget, I can't. That's why I wrote these notes...so that I can read them everyday, ponder them and figure out the solution. For what causes the smallest possible wound on me...and on him.
How much would he care if I disappeared? Would he write to me at all? Should I try it? Only a few days. A couple of painfully boring days as I watch the people I would like to call my friends forget me. Can i do this? They are my friends? No... How could they be?...Could they be?
