Letters To An Outlaw(Redwood Originals)*****completed****

19. DIOSA

Nikki

Where the fuck have you been. Dont fucking touch me I squeeled pulling out of his reach. Daniel's been looking for you. You've been avoiding your duties. I've had things come up and despite what Daniel thinks I'm not at his beck and call. You should have more respect Nicole. He pushes himself halfway inside lodging his foot to block my door. My eyes peer down to see his foot dodged between the crack and then wander back upwards to meet his dead stare.. Without Burkes protection your gonna need him. Daniel has done nothing but let you slide. Honestly I'm hoping you fuck this up. Personally I think your comprimised. Daniel would do better throwing you from the highest cliff.

Lucky for me your not making that call. His scowl slithers into a creepy grin.. Daniel's promised I can watch. Watch what. The boys take turns on you. A creepy grin slithers across his cheeks. Leave she answered in disgust. She slammed the door in his face closing her eyes trying to get the images out of her head. Why were men such pigs. She squeezed her eyes tighter but the visuals still played back. Flickering in static like an old black and white film. I slid my hand down over my face as if it actually helped with the pain that now took over. I had a migraine and my shoulders were so tense they could break rocks. I was bound to face Daniel eventually but I was still too shaken by that psycho ex cop that had his hands all over me. Then with the constant visuals of what I let Jax do to me. They said he was gone but it didn't really help. I was frightened and in no shape to see Daniel.

The next day I had no choice but face people. The Diosa was opening up and Lyla was getting promoted or something.

Lyla was all smiles she was happy and that made me happy. However she was almost too excited to actually sit down and have an actual conversation with me. Bouncing up to move a box, then she was rushing to the other room to grab papers. Then she was filing away said papers in the room down the hall. My head was spinning trying to keep up. I really wanted to be excited for her but honestly I just felt like a broken wheel that she was forced to drag around.

Here make yourself useful she said handing me a box to go through.
So your moving up in the world. No more eating pussy, good for you. I know how you feel about my work. She said sending an angry glare my way. I didnt say anything. I added sternly hoping to not offend her..

Dont pretend your too good to bend over and take it. Your not better than me Nicole your just luckier. Luckier huh, yeah I didnt feel very lucky. Hay I never said I was better I only meant that you should be. I mumbled as I sifted through random items in the box..

Are you really still giving me shit. I'm not here to bust your boobs girlfriend just wanted to say congrats and I'm happy for you. This Nero guy he treat you girls well. Yeah. You deserve it Lyla. Opie would be proud. I love you. I love you to she snickered.

Then the guys piled in. Jax. Chibs, Bobby, Happy, Rat, and Tig. Jax glanced straight at me meeting my stare before he cowardly focused on anything else. Visuals of him taking me flashed in my mind.. I wondered if that night would always haunt me.. When our eyes met we immediately turned away. There was an awkwardness between us and I didnt have the energy to ease the tension.

Jackie boooy this place is faaaantaastiiiic.....his Scottish accent rolling off of every letter.
This is great the guys clammored in excitement about cara cara. This place was a sign of new beginnings. I was happy for them but suddenly felt a rush of jealousy over Filip even after what I had done.

He did finally come over to talk as she helped Lyla set up shop. I'm glad you came in to help. She jumps back flinching at his touch. He paused scrunching up his forehead wishing he could take it back.

I'm sorry I couldn't make you feel safe. He said clearly upset by her reaction. She was afraid to say what she really felt out of fear that he blame himself for what happened and he was too afraid to ask her what she really needed so they went back to avoiding the other.

It went on like this for a few weeks. until I broke down and called him. Listening to ringing but no answer. Chibs looks down at his phone hits ignore then turns to Althea before placeing a hand over hers.

Chibs

Althea gives chibs some info on Burke. Money disappearing and connections to his corporation. Trying to get on his good side.

They have a fling that lasts for a better part of a month. Mostly during Nikki emotional break down.

At Church the Club decides to give a little intel to Althea. He felt entitled seeing how Nikki was acting out. Locking herself in her apartment by herself not seeing anyone. Probably blaming herself for what happened with Jax. He decided to see Althea and had been seeing her off and on. Althea had been there for him emotionally and he wanted to give her a win. She could tell he was upset but he's always kept her at a distance. Fighting about business that couldn't be shared.

He looked down at all the missed messages from Nicole and started to feel badly about his behavior.

Whats this. Althea asked looking at the envelope. She opened peeked through it then looked up at him. Just some evidence to put the bad guys away. Yeah. GEEZ thanks. She tried to reach out but he pulled away. Whats up? Don't. She questioned his odd behavior. Nothing just gotta go. Dont do that. She took a fistful of his shirt to pull him closer to which they started kissing but then he roughly pushed her away.

Don't you blow me off. I've been dumped before. I know what this is.

Yeah Jerry and whats that. He said now looking sad like he didn't really want to hurt her. I'm a big girl I can handle this shit. We dont work well together Althea im the criminal your the police. He answered softly. He walks away she tries to stop him they struggle and he pushes her against wall. Sexual tension was hot once before but that obviously diminished quickly. Now with Nicole on his mind he couldn't continue on.

Alright then she huffed. Shaking the envelope. Ill handle this shit then. Your welcome. Pfff she shakes her head and then closes her door.

His next and only stop was Nikki. He was beat, broken and had nothing left to give. He needed to be selfish right now. He wanted what he wanted club business would have to wait. It was well past midnight as he finally walked up to her door. The lights were already out when he tapped at the door.

She opened in a white tshirt that hit just above the knee. Her long blonde hair was pulled back into a messy bun. She fussed with it as she nervously held the heavy pistol at her side.. She was cute she didnt know shit about guns which was obvious but it was cute. She didn't say a word but pulled me inside. She could tell I was upset. We should talk.

You been outside yet..

She took a minute but finally answered with a shake of her head as if looking disapointed in herself. I just want you to feel safe again and I want to be the one to give it to ya. You dont think I want that. Its not a switch that can just be turned off Chibs its my feelings. I know. Where have you been i tried calling. I know your avoiding me.. No sweetheart its just me being stupid.. i just dont like feeling helpless plus I've been busy trying to make this town safe again. He reached out again but she involuntarily backed away. Will you ever let me touch you again. She looked down at his big thick hands. Taking one in hers and bringing it up to her cheek she held it in place closing her eyes as they filled with tears. I'm scared. She admitted.

I will never let anyone hurt you.

You can't promise that. I love you for saying it but no one can promise that especially now.

What do you mean.

I dont know whats going on with your club and I don't care but I'm not stupid. War is about to go off in Charming and everybody knows it. What I know about War is that the people closest to you are the ones that get hurt in the crossfire. Weather you want it to happen or not. I can keep you safe. He said in attempt to argue he was right. Listen go home and pack a bag ill take you to the cabin. Really? Finally she felt a small ounce of hope. Relief. She smiled. You should be safe there until we can clean up our mess.