I'm tired of people telling me that I'm beautiful, smart, and that I'm not fat because I know its ALL lies. People say that we should always think kindly to ourselfs and that we are beautiful but fuck that. Its not my fault that I think I'm fat ass hell actually!!! Its my parents and older brother's fault!! My older brother always told me that I'm fat and ugly for GOD KNOWS HOW MANY YEARS. PROBABLY 4! My parents practically body shame me when they see me eat more. I was working out with my dad and my mom came in and she asked why my older brother wasn't joining and my dad literally said "Because hes fine but this one... y'know.." And I looked at him. My heart hurt. He basically called me fat. Shit I'm sad just thinking abt it. Jesus I'm weak.
Anyways, I felt like I wanted to cry but I didn't and I just shook it off and continued to what I was doing. Hell, the doctor even said I was gaining more weight than height and I was EMBARRASSED. So basically, my parents kinda body shame me, my brother reminds me on a daily basis that I'm fat, and that my skinney friends make me feel even more fat. I know I didn't mention the friends part but its true!
go ahead. Tell me I'm beautiful. Try to make me feel beautiful because FUCK I HATE MYSELF. I FEEL LIKE KMS. I WAS ACTUALLY TEMPTED TOO. But guess what? I won't. Why? Because of these guys below me
@ALocalWeeb1
@Carlsbedsheets
@sofiakdls
They made me feel like my body was perfect the way it is for 2 minutes! I still feel worthless. Useless. Weak. Dumb. I still wonder why I'm such a fatass. But to my parents,
I'm sorry that I was never the perfect daughter you always wanted. I know you wanted a better daughter than me. You haven't said it, but I know. I'm sorry I'm not perfect enough for you. I'm sorry I'm weak. I'm sorry that I'm fat. I'm sorry that I were never good enough for you guys. I'm sorry I couldn't make you happy.
To all the people reading this,
I'm sorry I'm like this.
