i sometimes love my mom so much, but then other time i just don't wanna be here. but i know i always will have to accept that.
its hard to. she is the only person i think about and i start crying. its weird because i should be happy. i think i have no happy memories with her. every time i try to express my self to her she always try to make it about her. that why i learned to keep it to my self. i will figure it out eventually. i think i have never expressed my feelings to anyone, they have always been kept shut.
