Verse 1
Suffocated, unable to think in this strange place.
While people telling me what to think and what not to think.
I try to get away, run from it but I get tired of this never ending chase.
I hate it here, yet it's like a sweet poison, sickly manipulative and pulling me in the evil.
I wanna fight it, but I try to speak and I can't move.
They're tricking me and I'm too weak to do anything.
I lie but they tell me to prove.
Don't hurt my friends, I love them to death.
I wanna listen to them and stand up but it's hard.
I gain confidence but become mute the second after.
The mirror shows someone weak and the shards shows someone slowly becoming one of them.
Chorus
This place is killing me inside.
Children's screams are becoming normal and abuse becoming daily things.
These scars aren't pretty, they're reminders of when I defied.
And yet it never works, I'm feeling myself lose sanity day by day.
What would've happened if we never came here?
I know it's hurting me and I know it's manipulating me but I can't turn away.
Stop doing this, keep doing this.
Why am I so weak, why am I rotting away like decay?
Verse 2
I envy them, why can't I be strong?
They don't understand my pain, they think it's so easy.
They think I'm fine, they have each other while I'm dying alone.
"Don't surrender, don't surrender."
Maybe you're too late.
It's not fair, you're sick, why is it only me?
I wanna cry for help but the cold hand clutching my heart pulls me back and I have to be alone forever.
Curtains cover my teary eyes and pull back to form a smile.
And I nod and nod, trying to deny that my guilty pleasure isn't a guilty pleasure anymore.
Chorus
This place is killing me inside.
Children's screams are becoming normal and abuse becoming daily things.
These scars aren't pretty, they're reminders of when I defied.
And yet it never works, I'm feeling myself lose sanity day by day.
What would've happened if we never came here?
I know it's hurting me and I know it's manipulating me but I can't turn away.
Stop doing this, keep doing this.
Why am I so weak, why am I rotting away like decay?
Bridge
I hate you, I love you.
Maybe this place isn't bad after all.
I'm so ugly, I'm so beautiful.
Why can't anyone hear my voice screaming out, why can't you come save me?
And I know I'm a psychopath, I know I'm delusional.
I don't what's true, I don't know what's a lie.
I don't know who are my friends, I don't know who are my enemies.
I despise everything around me, I wanna kill every single person here.
Chorus
This place is killing me inside.
Children's screams are becoming normal and abuse becoming daily things.
These scars aren't pretty, they're reminders of when I defied.
And yet it never works, I'm feeling myself lose sanity day by day.
What would've happened if we never came here?
I know it's hurting me and I know it's manipulating me but I can't turn away.
Stop doing this, keep doing this.
Why am I so weak, why am I rotting away like decay?
Spoiler if you're gonna read my book "House of Felony."
⭣spoiler
This song is basically the POV and thoughts of one of the characters. IM NOT A PSYCHO GUYS 😭
Not gonna say which character but yeah. Basically about manipulation and falling into insanity. If you have questions, feel free to ask.
Im not that proud of this song. So I'm probably gonna write another one today or tomorrow.
