By accident, or planned (Book 2)

Chapter 1

-Kyra pov-

It's been a whole school year. A whole school year getting bullied by the one I once thought I've loved. Today is the last day of school.

On the first day, after school let out, Hayes texted me like he didn't hurt me. Literally. Like he did nothing. All I said was one message, that had said it all.

And I haven't talked to him since. He's tried so hard to cover his act after school, then during, he turn back into the asshole.

Days turn long and cold. I'm no longer me. I'm just depressed. As if the stress of this school wasn't bad enough, my ex-boyfriend made it that much worse. This is the worst I've felt in a while. A long while. I'm shutting myself out. Completely. I sit in my room and stare at a wall, because I no longer exist.

My MPD (multiple personality disorder) is more frequent than not. I change so easily. I just want to sleep. Forever. I want to leave. Forever. Imagine waking up every morning, and wishing I didn't.

I am going to kill myself. Maybe not today. Maybe not in a week. A month. Or even a year. But I can feel it, I will end my life, on my own terms.

Sometimes on the weekends my mom would visit Elizabeth or Kambree will play with Skylynn, and I have to deal with being in the same room as Hayes and not showing that I want to rip his head off.

Nash doesn't know, if he did, he would flip his cap. I kind of don't want him to. I don't want Nash to influence anything Hayes does, if this is what Hayes wants, it's what he will get. I feel like Nash knows something is up though. He's always messing around, just as usual, but he seems to watch me closely.

"Kyra, here, now." Nash says randomly just as I had arrived at their house, sadly. I slowly walk to him. Summer had just started so it was hot.

"What's up?" I say, knowing exactly What's up. He looks at me with sadness in his eyes? Why sadness?

"We need to talk about Hayes."

"What about Hayes?" I say mentally readying myself for this conversation.

"Don't pull that shit." I look at him, hanging my head. "What has he done?" He says grabbing my arm. I wince and flinch as soon as he grabbed me. He pulled back, realizing he had hurt me. I didn't feel pain from firmness of his touch, but because of what was already on my wrist. "Kyra, lift up your sleeves." I shake my head no in denial. "Now!" He says raising his voice.

I hang my head low And pull up my sleeves revealing cuts that you could count by tens. "I'm sorry..."

"Did he do this to you?..." I shake my head no. Lying. "Kyra, this is not a time for lying Goddamnit!" I can't look him in his beautiful eyes.

He grabs my chin. "Now tell me. Did. He. Do. This to you?" I slowly nod my head. Then shake it no.

"It's his group of friends, he doesn't do anything though. He just... stands there... and laughs..." I trail off, finally looking Nash in the eyes. He has pure anguish in them. "Please don't do anything, if this is what he wants, let him have it." He shakes his head furiously.

"Kyra, I love you like a sister, and when someone I love is Getting hurt I don't just sit around And let it happen. " he starts up the stairs and I beg and plead him to Stop,but he brushes me off like a fly. I pull out my phone and text Shawn , he's the one I am closest to.

ME: Shawn, shits about to go down I think. If something happens I don't know if I'll be able to handle it.

Shawn knows all about everything I'm going through with my mom's new addiction, my dad, and Hayes. He always calls me and calms me, he always sings to me. I love him. In what way? I don't know.

SHAWN: Buying a plane ticket now.

He's visited me two other times this year. He wrote a song for me while he was here and every time he has to go he sings it.

The lyrics go:

I promise one day I'll be around. I'll keep you safe I'll keep you Sound. Right now it's Pretty crazy and I don't know how to Stop or slow it down. Hey, I know There are some things we need to talk about. And I can't stay, just let me hold you for a little longer now. Take a piece of my heart, and make it all your own. So when we are apart, you'll never be alone. Never be alone.

You'll never be alone. When you miss me close your eyes. I may be far but never gone. When you fall asleep tonight, just remember that we lay under the Same stars. And Hey, I know there are some things we need to talk about. And I can't stay, just let me hold you for a little longer now. And take a piece of my heart, and make it all your own. So when we are apart, you'll never be alone. You'll never be alone. You'll never be alone. You'll never be alone. You'll never be alone. You'll never be alone. And take a piece of my heart, and make it all your own. So when we are apart, we'll never be alone. Never be alone.

I love these moments, a lot.

I hear screaming and yelling and Nash leaving Hayes' room infuriated. Well then... "Nash!" I yell at him. He slams his door and Hayes appears from his. I frown.

"Kyra.." he says shakily.

"Hayes," I say with pure hatred in my voice. He frowns And sits next to me. I scoot over so I'm not near him. "I'm not going to sit here in silence" I snap at him