Life goes on [Jungkook's Six Strict Hyungs][ a BTS Brotherhood FF]

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People hides two different sides under themselves. One is good side which is actually his real one; and another is demon. The side which continuously pokes him to do something bad, to take a bad step so that his whole life turns upside down. No one is born without a demon hidden himself. Some people can ignore it and others try to ignore it. And there is someone who fights inside with both of the side. Sometimes the real side wins, and sometimes the real side let the devil won! And when the fights go on...that person can't control himself!

Taehyung needs help, he himself knows that. He knows he is going through a hard reality. He is fighting with his inner demon for so long and it making him tired of everything. He needs a break from it. But, he can't!

He wants to scream out of frustration. He is so done of himself! He is not what he acts out, he is actually the same Taehyung who he used to be before his mother's death. He cares and still loves his dongsaengs more than himself. He never hated Jungkook and can't hate ever in his life. All he wants is the best of Jungkook. But, everything went wrong whenever his inner demon shows up.

He panics when the demon shows up. It's terrifying. He don't wanna hurt the poor boy cause he is not a bad brother. Deep inside he knows Jungkook is not the reason of the accident, as it says, it's only an accident, no one has hands on it! But his devil wants someone to blame on, so that he can feel a bit relieve! And it made his way to Jungkook...if he didn't insist to go out that day, then maybe....

Yes, Tae knows he needs help. He needs to talk with his hyungs and fix this! But he is afraid of the circumstances. All he is doing is fighting with his dual selves everyday...It's like he is living in a wild and scary dream every day! He is scared of himself that one day he will be exposed and everyone will hate him! He is afraid that he will hate himself for that...so, all he does is suffering alone and keep trying to win against his devil inside...all alone!

And so here he is, sitting in the deck chair beside indoor pool of his mansion, holding his hair with his long fingers of both hands...tightly. His knuckles are turning white showing how much tight the hold is. He is frustrated in one word.

The pool area is calm and quiet. All the lights are off so, only the moon is giving the mysterious vibe here. He is in one corner of the pool, making him almost invisible. If someone doesn't give enough attention, they won't find out that he is here!

Taehyung was staring at the calm wave less blue water, silently. But inside his head there was going a strong fight which only he can hear...

~Kim Taehyung. What the hell are you doing? Stop being selfish and go back to the party. They want your presence.

~I don't care. I can't take it there.

~Enough of your drama Taehyung. How much time I need to tell you that he is your brother!

~I know he is my brother.

~Then why? It's his birthday and here you are-

~STOP IT OK? What birthday? It's my mother's death day...and he is the reason she is not here!

~Taehyung you are insane. How can you say that? He was just eight for god's sake and it was an accident!

~I know it was an accident! You don't have to remind me again and again.

~Yes I have to....cause you are not being good. You are still rounding on the same place. FOR GODS SAKE STOP IT! He needs you...can't you see you freaking idiot?

~If I go there then he will remind me of her-And I know I can't control myself. I will surely freak out and....I don't want it-

~Do you think your mom will be happy to see you like that?