Strawberries & cigarettes

I love him

I'm freaking out right now, my best friend is sitting outside of my house waiting for me to sneak out but I don't know if I can. its currently 10PM and my parents are sleeping, Sam said we'd be back before they wake up but I don't think this is safe.

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my phone is going off, is it my parents?! Did they find out! I stop overthinking and look at my phone its just Sam telling me to hurry up, I take a deep breath and open my window. I see Sam sitting in his car playing on his phone. my house is one story so jumping out of the window isn't hard. The hard part is going to be getting over the fence, I start climbing up, after I'm about 3 feet off the ground my foot slips and I can see Sam laughing at me from his car. when he's done laughing at me he glances back at me with a gentle smile that softens my angry expression, I continue to climb over the fence.

As I walk up to his car he rolls down the window

"Uber for Oscar" he says with a bright smile

"just unlock the door" I groan

"you're such an ass, you know that?" he replied

as I sit down ignoring what he said, I ask where he plans on taking us

"the park, unless you have somewhere you wanna go" he adds

"I would like to go back to my room" I grumble

"well that's not happening" he giggles

as we drive we sit in a comfortable silence, the park isn't far but Sam has always loved car ride so he's driving slow. I glance at him, he looks beautiful in the moonlight, he has this small smile on his face, it wasn't always like this but he's happy now. I never want him to be sad ever again, i want to see him smile like this forever. I'm in love with him, I know I am but I'm not sure if I can ever tell him. it might ruin our friendship and I don't him to be sad, it makes me sound full of myself but I know that he's happy when he's with me. I want to tell him but that will ruin everything

he parks the car

"you're staring again, makes me think you're in love with me"  he laughs

"I am not in love with you" I say very seriously

"I think you're in denial" he continues with a sweet smile

We get out of the car and walk up to the swings, well Sam is running. Once I'm next to him on the swings he reminds me of the day we  met

"Remember when we first met" he said with a wonderful look on his face

"You said light my cigarette" I reply

When I'm done talking he hands me a lighter and puts a cigarette in his mouth, he leans toward me gesturing for me to light it, I don't instead I take it in between my fingers a toss it on the ground

"It's bad for you" I warn

"You're no fun" he grumbles

"That's fine" I Counter

He gets up and dashes to the slides from the top of the slide he yells

"Catch me!!"

"You're a big boy you can do it yourself" i yell back

He slides down on his stomach and groans in his way down, I laugh at him. He lays there for a second but then he just perks back up right after, it's cute.  Next he goes over to the monkey bars, he's pretty short but can reach them when i stands on his tip-toes. Once he grabs hold of the bar he starts going across, about halfway through he falls on his knees. I run up to him worried. He's laughing but he's also bleeding. I'm just looking at him

"God, you make no sense" I say as I look at him with a disappointed look

I help him up and we start walking to his car, he goes to open his door but it's locked, he begins to look in his pockets then groans

"My keys are locked in there I'm sorry" he apologizes

"It's an honest mistake"

"I'll call an Uber, it's late but we should fine"

"Are you sure that's a good idea, what if we just walked"

"We're more likely to get murdered if we walk"

"Ok fine, but where are we even going"

"Downtown, it's looks nice when it's dark"

"Are we just going to walk around"

"Yep"

He's on his phone trying to get us an Uber, as he does this I sit down in a curb. And he follows, we're sitting really close to each other, I look up from the ground and look at his face. He stares back. Without his signature smile

"What's wrong sam?"

"Oh, I just feel bad about all of this"

"Why do you feel bad"

"I mean look at us we're sitting on a curb at midnight waiting for an Uber because stupid ol' me locked my keys in my car, you would've been better off at home" he mumbles

"It's fine, I'm having fun. In fact this is the most fun I've had all week" I say as I start intertwining my fingers with his

Once I realize what I'm doing I stop

"I'm sorry" I say with a nervous voice

"It's okay" he insists as he puts his hand back in mine

As he does this I feel my face heat up, my hand is becoming sweaty. I hope he doesn't notice it though, we have been friends for a while but this is the most intimate thing we've done besides hug each other. This makes me nervous, happy. But nervous. I look up to him staring off into the distance, I want to talk but I don't, I shouldn't ruin his moment. After a few seconds

This was never actually finished or edited but here you are