My Thoughts

Too Much...

Everyday I fight a new battle
But yet it's always the same
Always the same enemy
I have never understood why I am the way I am
I've hated myself
At times I still do
I've loved myself
Rarely I still do
But I've never been able to accept who I am
I just can't
I've never known why
I have never known why I can't be different
Why I can't change
Why I can't be this or that
I've hated it
I still do
I've never understood why I can't be like other girls
Girls who are happy
Girls who have no worries
Girls who are comfortable with their body and who they are as a person
I've never been that girl
I wish I was
I wish I was skinner
I was I was taller
I wish I could change so much about me
I've wished I could be better
But I can't
I will always be like this
I don't feel like I'm good enough
I don't feel happy
I am always having to fake who I am
I can't be who I want to
I can't be me
The real me is a completely different person than you know
And I wish it wasn't
I wish I could be me
I wish you could know the truth
But I've been hated on, ridiculed, beat, just for who I am
Just for being me
No one can accept me
I don't understand why
I don't understand a lot about people
I don't understand why I can't just be accepted
I just don't want to hide anymore...
Is that so much to ask for...