Autumn POV //
Light hitting me in my face as I open my eyes. Looking around, taking in my surroundings. This room screams expensive.
I just know I am not at home. Home? Was that really my home? Or was I just trapped at that place? Now that I think about it, it wasn't my home. I never had a home.
The room door was slightly opened. I could hear music and the smell of waffles. My favorite.
Grunting while sliding out of the big, yet comfy bed. I hold onto my stomach. Getting stabbed is insane.
I walk to the bathroom that's connected to the bedroom. Staring myself down in the mirror. I look weak and hopeless. No one can save me. Im drowning. There's nothing or no one to pull me up. I'm broken.
I then look around, noticing a toothbrush and towel on the right side of the sink top. A note placed in front of it.
You're welcomed to use this stuff. Make yourself at home - Brent.
That was so nice of him. I still don't fully trust him. Now that I think about it ... I never really trusted anyone.
I brush my teeth and wash my face off. Still looking drained as ever.
I slowly walk out the room and follow the music. No Role Modelz By J Cole was playing.
No role models and I'm here right now
No role models to speak of
Searchin' through my memory, my memory
I couldn't find one
Last night I was gettin' my feet rubbed
By the baddest bitch, not Trina, but I swear to God
This bitch will make you call your girl up and tell her, "Hey, what's good?
No joke this is my favorite song by him real shit. J Cole is my favorite artist. Everything that comes out that mans mouth be the realist shit ever. He helped me realize a lot of stuff too.
I walk into what looks like the kitchen and see Brent making breakfast while mumbling the lyrics.
"Sorry im neva comin home, ima stay fa good" I rapped. I know I scared him a lil bit by the way he dropped a bowl on the floor.
"My fault, ain't mean to scare you" I chuckled. "You ain't scare me ma. You just caught me off guard" he cheesed.
"So you a J Cole fan?" He asked me looking me up and down. Making me feel insecure.
"Uh yea. Always been." I say sitting down at the countertop. "So how do you not know who I am?" He said looking confused. "I'm not really big on names, but if you were to play me a song I would most likely know it." I say.
I watch as he grabs his phone and plays Dead Man Walking.
To my surprise I knew the song. Especially by this long ass intro. I started nodding my head to the beat. Getting prepared to sing my heart out of course.
Drop the roof and let the smoke clear (smoke clear)
Lemme hear that
Drop the roof and let the smoke clear
I got diamonds doin' toosie slides in both ears
Dice rollin' on the Las Vegas strip tonight
Slip that on and we might miss the fight
Fuck a knot, I keep the guala in my shorty bag
You know she one of mine when she tattoo that ass
I'm a lover boy
She love the toys
Keep it comin', you a rider
I sang to myself forgetting he was in the room with me. I looked up at him staring at me intently. "My fault, I get carried away sometimes" I say nervously.
"Yo voice beautiful as fuck. Why you ain't out here making music?" He says still in shock. "I guess I never really thought my voice was good." I said trying not to go deep in thought. "Is it something you would wanna go into?" He said making our plates.
"I never really thought about it. Besides im always busy with ... stuff." I say.
To be honest, I was always busy trying to get out of that house. To get away from HIM. Bussing my ass off at that job everyday just to make a way of living. Trying to survive on my own.
"You know im not allowing you to go back over there." Brent said to me serious. "I don't ever wanna go back." I nearly mumbled.
"You can stay here as long as you want. Besides I get a little bit lonely in this big ass house." He said chuckling. "Well, while im here let me hear some more of your music" I said actually interested in him now.
I know, I know, I KNOW!! Its been fckin months and i give yall this trash ass chapter????? Im js tryna set everything in place so ts makes sense 😭! I been working on some other books which is part of the reason why the updates are takin too long!!! BUT I GOT YALL W A LONG CHAPTER COMINNN!!
