The sound of the wave as it crashed with the sand became my safe haven all through the years
It was a place that gave me comfort...as well as the only place that made me remember her
The only place that brought me all the memories of her smile, her laugh, her happiness...before I took it all away from her
This place was also the only standing memory of my unforgivable choices...my regrets
Its been 40 years but my tears still fall the same way as it did that day
It was my fault
My karma as what children these days speak of
It truly was
Will I ever meet you again?
Have the chance to finally say sorry one last time before I let go of this world?
"Granny!" My thoughts came into a stop as I heard a familiar voice call for me from behind
I turned around and saw the cheeky brat that has been meeting me since last week
She was running while waving her hand and I grew worried of how wobbly her two little feet were. My mind worrying if she will fall or not
"Chiquita" I spoke with a smile on my face as she came face to face with me.
"How have you been granny? Did you miss me?" Her little doe eyes stared at me, a smile plastered on her face as the sweat broke out from the heat, her bangs sticking to her forehead
She makes me remember you
"I always miss my little escort" I tried to bend down to match her height but the years took my ability and strength, so I decided on a small pat to her head
"But why are you here alone again? Where are your parents?" I met her the same time a few weeks ago, she was sitting beside the waves, crying with her head down. When I came to her side, she grew frightened at first, seemingly scared at a stranger coming near her, afraid I'll kidnap her
I laughed at the sudden memory of what she said
"You won't kidnap me right?"
"Why do you ask?" I stared at her amused
"My grandma told me to never speak to strangers" I cooed at the way she pronounced the words. It always amazed me how at her age she grew to speak more mature than anyone close to her generation
She was a smart kid
"You have a good grandmother"
"My parents are away on a trip and I'm with my Grandma!" I mirrored the smile on her face.
"Well why are you not with your grandma then?" I asked curiously. A child like her shouldn't be strolling alone in a place filled with unknown people
"She went out to buy something, she came from this place and wanted to eat what she used to eat before" It still bewildered me how such a small child can talk maturely like an adult
"But letting a child go alone-"
"Don't worry granny, I told GrandGrand I'll meet a friend here and she knows about you" I could not finish my argument when she pulled me to a bench a good distance away from the sea
"She has guts trusting her grandchild to a stranger" I shook my head in disbelief as we both sat down, me helping her get up from the chair as her little feet still could not reach that high
"Scold your grandma for me later okay baby?" I looked at the small child beside me as she tilted her head to the side while crunching her nose
What a cutie
She really reminds me of you of how confused you are most of the time
"Why would I do that granny? My grandgrand didn't do anything wrong"
"Tell her she should not be leaving her grandkids to strangers" I was hard on telling her this. I didn't want anything happening to her as the days made me grow fonder of her cute little resemblance and humor
"But you aren't a stranger" a sudden warm arrow pierced through my heart at her cuteness.
I've always loved children
But I would have loved it even more if it came from both if us
But that will only be a wishful thinking
"Still honey, you might never know what I'll do" I simply explained to the kid as best as I could "Strangers can be nice at first but they can turn evil and eat you" I position my hand until the height of my head and imaginatively clawed at her but instead of it scaring her off, she gave the cutest laugh a child can do
"Granny you are funny" she laughed but did the same thing to me with a loud imitation of a dinosaur
"Roar" she held her hand in the same manner as I did and it only made her cuter than she already was
We both laughed at ourselves and it grew to gain attention from the minority of people passing by to watch the serene beauty of the ocean as it kissed goodbye to the blazing sun
Our laughs echoed through the area and it mask any noise that entered our circle, which ultimately, hid the foot steps that were coming near us
We couldn't hear it but a voice suddenly spoke from behind making us stare at each other before she turned around to face whoever the caller was
"Chiquita!"
That voice
"What did I tell you about abruptly leaving?"
It can't be
"But Grandgrand, my friend is here so you don't have to worry" I can visualize her pouting and using her eyes to gain pity
"Of course I'll worry, I don't even have any idea who this friend of yours is"
Its been years but I am sure the voice belongs to her
How can I ever forget the voice of the person that hunts me at my every wake?
"Well you can meet her now grandgrand!" I grew paralyzed in my place as I can hear their footstep coming closer that it made my heart pound from the thought of finally being able to see her again
After so long
My head fell to stare at the sand beneath my feet. I was trying to find a way to hide from her. I wanted to see her again, I've always longed for this moment but the thought of seeing her walk away from me again made me remember what had happened that day
"Hello Ma'am, I am sorry for my grandkid. She is one naughty child but she's sweet" With my head lowered, I can see her familiar legs, albeit, it grew to be covered with her age, I can still remember every detail that surrounded her
"Ma'am?" Her honey voice began to trigger the tears from my eyes. The years definitely did not take away my feelings, for some reason, it made it grow stronger
Will you walk away again if you see me?
"Is everything alright?" Nothing has ever been right since that day
The memories of her crying, kneeling, begging, I wanted the heavens to take my life right there. I was her trauma and she became mine, but my trauma was because of my own actions not because of her
I suddenly felt a soft touch over my shoulder and it send electric shock coursing through me
Even your touch is the same
"Do you need some help- J-Jennie?" I finally gain the courage to face you again. I smiled but the tears began to fall one after another at the sight of your face
I finally saw you again
At the very spot where we fell apart
"Lisa"
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