4 years⤳norenmin

6.

- 3rd Person P.O.V

"so tell me what happened" Sungchan asked

"well after we came here I showed him around Seoul and I don't know maybe I have a chance with him again but I don't know if I want to date him without Jeno" Jaemin said

"so basically you're stressed because you're still in love with your exes and want to date them again" Sungchan said and Jaemin nodded

"man I think you just need to get your thoughts in order because right now you look like someone on drugs" Jaemin rolled his eyes but decided to listen to Sungchan's advice

"also there is someone at the door they've been knocking for a few minutes" Jaemin frowned

"why didn't you get it then" Sungchan just shrugged his shoulders

"seriously how long does it take for you to answer a door man" Donghyuck said when Jaemin finally opened the door for him

"sorry Sungchan is a bit of an idiot and I didn't hear it" Donghyuck rolled his eyes and pushed his way inside

"anyways I am here inviting you to a party I'm throwing for Renjun which he does not know about but I'm forcing you to go" Jaemin nodded

"do I get a choice" Donghyuck shook his head

"great I'll be there" Jaemin said

"oh do you still know how to get there" Donghyuck asked and Jaemin nodded

"you can bring Sungchan if you want" Jaemin frowned, did he really want Sungchan to meet Renjun

"oh and Jeno is coming too" Donghyuck added

"great so I'll see you tonight" Donghyuck said before leaving

"so we're going to a party tonight" Sungchan said when Jaemin sat back down

"it's not an actual party he just means it's going to be friends who used to hang out with Renjun before he left" Sungchan frowned

"not in then"

"good cause I wasn't going to bring you" Sungchan rolled his eyes

"but seriously are you going to be okay cause you haven't seen these guys in years and now all of a sudden you're seeing them everyday" Jaemin sighed

"I'm not sure anymore I just think I have to work through it" Sungchan nodded

"well I'm heading out now I'm going to Shotaro's so I'll probably spend the night there" Jaemin smiled and nodded

He sighed when he heard the front door close, he was alone again. Honestly he was glad when Sungchan moved in, because his apartment was so quiet all the time and he hated it

He hated it because he could still remember spending days at Renjun's place and it always being lively. There was always happiness there and here it just felt lonely, because he had no one

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"Mark why are you here again" Jeno asked after he and Mark had been sitting on the same couch for an hour without saying a word

"I was bored at home and Donghyuck is going fucking crazy" Jeno laughed and nodded

"oh shit if that's him don't tell him I'm here" Mark said running into Jeno's room when he heard a knock on the front door

"oh hey Hyuck what are you doing here" Jeno said opening his front door

"your coming to this party tonight Mark can drive you since I know he's here" Donghyuck said and Jeno nodded

"what's it for"

"Renjun's homecoming" Jeno frowned

"come on Jaemin is coming too and all our friends are going to be there you have to go" Jeno sighed and nodded

"okay fine I'll be there" Donghyuck smiled and walked off

"great just what I wanted to see both of my exes again" Jeno muttered

"is he gone" Mark said

"yeah he knows your here anyways"

"I know he knows I just don't want him to ask me to help him plan the party I hate planning shit with him" Jeno laughed and sat back down

"anyways do you think you'll be okay with seeing both Renjun and Jaemin" Mark asked

"I have to be man it's been four years I have to get over it at some point" Mark sighed, he knew Jeno well enough to know that meant he was never going to get over it and he was still in love with them

"Jeno shut up I can't do this anymore"

"Do you know how insufferable it is to listen to this oh I just have to get over it no you don't you guys were together for a long time and literally were perfect for each other and now your not together your allowed to be sad about it even if it has been awhile since it happened it is still sad" Mark yelled

"Mark you know I love you but I can't, I can't help but think if I just didn't leave we would still be together" Mark frowned

"but they left too it was an equal break up you and I both know that and so do they" Mark said and Jeno sighed

"I know I just really miss them" Mark nodded

"and that's okay but you need to admit this stuff if not to others at least to yourself cause you don't do well when bottling up feelings" Mark said

"and if you can't do this party we won't go man I can stay with you or I can go by myself Hyuck will get over it but you need to do what's best for you" Jeno smiled

"It's cool man I should try and become friends with them if we're going to be all together again as a group" Jeno said

"anyways put the movie back on it was interesting" Mark said

They spent the next few hours watching random movies on netflix, all made Jeno hate life because they all had a happy ending with love and romance

So when it was finally time to leave he was ecstatic, because at least he wouldn't have to be annoyed about a movie, now he could be annoyed about real life

"come on Jeno you ready for this" Mark said when they were getting into his car

Jeno nodded, but they both knew he wasn't. He was never going to be prepared to see them, both of them, and not be able to kiss them or even just touch them. He was never going to be ready for this if they weren't together

"can you give me a minute" Jeno said when they were walking to his building

"sure I'll meet you upstairs" Mark said and Jeno nodded

He didn't know how to handle this, they were the most important thing in his life for so long and now they're meant to mean nothing. He just wanted everything to go back to the way it was

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Hey lovelies

How are you I hope you're doing well and taking care of yourselves and remembering to eat well

My limbs are in so much pain from working most of the week, it's actually not funny but at least I have the day off tomorrow before I have work again multiple days in a row

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