Rival love

Feelings-[Chapter 4]

HIS VIEW

I woke up at 6:00 still thinking about last night. I never thought that I could make her laugh and smile. I wonder if she'll just ignore me at school. She's..she's..I don't know I have so many mixed feeling I don't know what to feel. I mean I like to be around her, I feel safe. And her warmth, her laugh,smile,eyes. But at the same time I feel like we don't belong. Also if I don't tell her I'm gonna lose her again and probably never find someone like her . Someone that's makes me feel like nothing matter except us. The comfort I feel when she's around me. I sat in my bed s deciding if I should go to school. 'Fuck it I'm not going my minds to much rn' I thought to myself and went back to sleep.

HER VIEW

I got up and got ready I have to walk again. Dads not home that's good. I go to the kitchen and grab a apple and walk out the door. I'm walking while listing to my music. Who knew that music can make anything better. But still can't get my mind off of how is he gonna act of sees me. If he gonna act normal and his flirty self. I'm so nervous. I don't even know why Im Nervous we are rivals after all. Shouldn't we not care. Now I'm starting to think it's my fault to ask him to hangout last night.
I feel someone tap my shoulder. Is it him. Is it the boy that I can't get out my head.i turn around. "Hey!" The person says when I turn around...it's..it's Jason. I forgot he wanted to walk together. "Hi" I say looking at him "sorry I forgot you asked me to walk with me" I say looking Down. "It's okay" he says grabbing my hand. Should I move my hand if I have feeling for some one else. But there mixed feeling. There's those feelings that I want to hate him and continue being rivals and there's that feeling that I want to be his and only his, and love him,have his kisses and hold his hand,cuddle with him. What should I choose. 'DAMMIT' I yell in my mind. "Hey are you okay" Jason asks. "Yeah, just tired"

THEY ARRIVE AT THE SCHOOL

"Wow I didn't know it would be this nice for a night school, I mean it looks more like a college." Jason says smiling "well it kinda of a academy and academy's are private schools so" I say looking at the big school in front of us. "Yeah I guess your right" he says while he shrugs his shoulders. 'Where is he? Is he on the lawn?' I think. "Hey are you sure your okay I mean you look worried.?" Jason says while touching my shoulder. "Uhhh-I-I got to go!" I say while I start running. My legs just started running. I can't stop I'm not in control.

HIS VEIW

Should I text her? Should I call her? I miss her but I don't at the same time. Should I have went to school?  No I shouldn't. But do I call her? 'BING' that's my phone. Email from school: Trojan students do not forget the homecoming dance is this Friday. Be ready and safe it will start at 5 pm.
'Oh shit I forgot all bout that I was focused on her all this time!' Wait I can ask her then. I bet she will look beautiful in her dress. I start smiling. Wait I'm getting to ahead of myself I don't even know if someone already asked her already. she would may be say no anyways. plus my so call "girlfriend" estella calls Lucy. But clearly Lucy just wants fame that's why she asked my out. I don't know why I said yes I clearly regret that decision. To be honest I think she likes a guy on the football of course she's a cheerleader, I like baseball. I wonder what Estella is doing right now, she's probably at school. She probably forgot what happen the other night. I lay back in bed and turned on my phone. I'm thinking of texting her but I'm scared I'm gonna annoy her. What if some random boy asks her out before me. But I think Lucy would want to go with me or her other boyfriends.

HER VIEW

I just remembered we have prom. Is Jason gonna ask me out? I wonder where kylo did he have a good night that night? Or is he thinking about Lucy. She is his girlfriend so she probably asked her to prom. Who knows though he doesn't even kiss her. Well not that I know of to be honest. I do miss hanging out with him though and does he feel the same way, I mean he wrote me that note. His wild,soft,shinny brown hair is always in his face. I do miss him. But I-I don't know how to say it. I want him to ask me to prom but also I want him to never talk to me ever again. What are my feeling for him. 'Shit I'm late for 1st period.' I start running and Jacob is in the same 3 periods with me. I wonder where Kylo is he's never late. If he doesn't show up, he's not coming because he's never late. His girlfriend is here she seems to be flirting with Jacob. But she has kylo don't get me wrong Jacob is a good friends but she's a bitch. She is not meant to be with a sweetheart like Jacob. "Okay class settle down! Get in your seat Lucy!" Mr. Robins. He only yells at her if kylo is here cause Lucy sits in Kylo's lap. But she was sitting in Jacob's desk and he was sitting on his seat. She would never cheat on kylo right?.