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The next day, I'm sitting in the waiting room of Doctor Johnson's office. She's been my doctor since I was born. She's a huge part in my family. She's been to every gathering, every birthday, everything. Now she gets to find out I'm pregnant.
I know there are choices. I either keep the baby, give it up for adoption, or abortion. Which I know for a fact I'm not choosing abortion. I really think I will keep the baby. I made the choice to have sex now I have to stand up and be an amazing mother. It's my choice and nobody can make me think differently.
"Brianna?" The desk lady, Susan calls. "Right in here sweetie." My mom comes with me so I'm not alone. She holds my hand as we walk into the room.
Dr. Johnson comes in a few minutes later. "What seems to be the problem?"
It seems like Doctor's always say that you know?
"Well we have found out..." My mom pauses. "Brianna is pregnant."
Dr. Johnson's mouth drops a little. "Do you know what you're choice is?" She looks directly at me.
I nod and say confidently, "I want to keep the baby. Mom, I know you probably don't want me to make that decision but I do and it's my choice. I'm sorry." Tears fill my eyes and Mom rubs my leg.
"I honestly think you're ready for this Brianna. And I've known you all your life. I think you're mature and responsible. Donna, I think your daughter is ready to take care of this baby." Dr. Johnson says.
I can't help but to go up and hug her. When she hugs back I cry even more. I knew this was going to happen so I didn't wear any make up.
"That means so much to me. Thank...you...so...much" I manage to get out through many sobs.
"But being a teen mom isn't easy. You'll be up constantly through the night and you will definitely be judged. I sure hope you're ready Miss Brianna." She says.
Once we're all calm, we set up another appointment in a few weeks. We get in the car and head home.
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"So you are going to keep it?" My mother says as soon as we step in the door.
"Yes. And mom it's a baby not an "it" " I say.
She rolls her eyes and walks away. I decided to take the rest of the day to just think. Just to plan out everything. Dr. Johnson gave me some pamphlets to look over.
I want to plan the names and set up a place in my room. I know, I know. You guys are probably thinking I'm taking this way too fast. Because I have 9 months? But those 9 months are going to be filled with doctors appointments, days crying because of me getting judged. Its good to have this all planned out now.
I find an empty binder and label it "My Pregnancy" I will right day by day in here and have my plans and everything in here. I'm actually an organized person when it comes to this kind of stuff.
Ok. If it's a girl, Ariana Marie and if it's a boy Drew Michael. Ariana because Ariana Grande is my idol and inspiration and I totally look up to here. And Drew because that's my dad's name.
I think it's time to tell Jesse. I decide to text him.
*We need to talk. Its very important.
*Are you okay baby!?
*I'm fine. But...I'm pregnant.
This is where he took 20 minutes to respond. I expected this. Jesse is in no way, shape,or form ready to be a dad. He is so immature for 14 years old.
*Are you keeping the baby?
*Yes I am. I would like it if you were a part in this child's life.
*Oh. I will be. I will be the best daddy ever for our child. Girl or boy, I will stand up and be there.
*Thank you. Thank you so much. I love you.
*I love you too. I wanna be there for every doctors appointment too.
*Ok. The next one is March 24th.
*That long!?
*Yes. Now I have to go do the dishes. I love you and thank you for being here.
I shut off my phone so I have no distractions. I just need to sleep. Its 5 o'clock before I know it and its time for dinner. We're having steak. Hopefully this baby likes meat.
I scarf down my dinner but in about 10 minutes, I don't feel so well. I run to the bathroom and throw up. Not as much as the first time but I hate throwing up period. Its the most disgusting thing ever. But speaking of periods...I wont have mine for 9 months. YES.
Well I think it's time for Mama to have some sleep. Thank gosh...
