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dear diary, today was confusing

Age 10
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Dear diary- mother is taking me to another doctor again..and I don't know why I pretended to ignore my friends so i didn't have to take the medicine. now my mother may be nicer nowadays;stopped putting the medicine in my food,giving me allowance to buy small trinkets and gizmos and in secret I draw sing and play with my real friends. People have started to try and befriend me as of late and I don't now how to feel about it..so I don't. All I want is to be alone in the woods playing with sticks and hammers making up languages worlds with pure imagination guiding my hands with my real friends tagging along...but it never goes my way does it? Today at school some girls tugged me into their circle "did you know that□■□□□ like likes you? Eeeee! How do you feel?do you like them too?!"go exclaimed as the other girls woop and squeal i lost myself to thought 'I do not wish to date' I thought and then I made my decision "I do not want to date at all so no." I stated it as bluntly as I could to the girls staring into the one who asked without a blink.she sened to freeze then ask another question "why not?" "I don't want to date "I stated again and waked off to my cubby for my lunch when I was poked on the shoulder.i turned around head tilted to see □■□□□ standing just a ways behind me he looked like he was holding in a fart but he allways looked like that when was focusing "please date me" he crouched to eyelevel holding a sage green envelope with a heart drawn on it hand it to looking at his shoes I looked started lookingthe writing it says
"to: [my name]
From:□■□□□
so I opened it and found a folded piece of paper saying

Do you like me? □yes □no □ mabey
And so I pulled my pencil out of my desk and checked off the no, folded it up, re-sealed it and returned it to him I said sorry and that I just don't want to date he stopped taking to me as much...finaly some alone time with my friends until its time to go home. This morning The doctor said i was improving tho I didn't change anything they say I improved mentally ;that I've stopped hallucinating and like a normal kid started making friends. Mother driving home stops at the ice-cream place to celebrate i chose to say nothing and picked mint chocolate cheesecake. When we went home i speed shuffled to my room for a quick mini panic attack suddenly arms lay themselves on my shoulder and I look up to see Trelm hugging me from the back pressing and grounding me
And cute little
Drep lounging on my feet and the smell of grass calming falling asleep thats enough for today -era