Shawn Mendes Imagines

Anxiety attack

Y/N feels the tightness in her chest first. She keeps walking hoping pressing her hand with some pressure to her sternum helps but it never does. Next comes the fluttery feeling in her legs. And the threat that they'll go numb. She needs to call Shawn; she knows that but she wants to push through the sudden anxiety and finish walking Circa, their corgi. Plus she wants to attempt to calm herself down. But honestly, Shawn's so much better at it.

Just get to a good spot, a good place to sit and then you can call Shawn she tells herself as she pushes on. Text or call? She wonders as she gets to a bench. She decides to call deciding hearing his voice might also help.

"Hi lovie! Andrew and I were just talking about you. What are you doing?" It takes a minute for Y/N to find her voice. "I-I'm having an anxiety attack. I-I'm sorry I wanted to just deal with it myself b-but nothing's working." Her body starts shaking so she attempts to kind of fold herself in half on the bench, laying her arms on her knees and her face in her arms. Circa comes up and boops her snout against her knee in an attempt to help their human.

"Ok baby, where are you?" Shawn asks, concerned. Y/N smiles at the pup, happy they're here and she's not technically alone. "Out walking Circa. At the park. Across from that great bakery. T-too loud."

Shawn nods. "Ok baby, I know it's loud but that's a perfect place to play our game. Deep breaths remember, try to fill your belly with air ok?"

"I can't!" Y/N nearly screams. "You can baby, if you're taking you can breath. Just try for me okay?" She nods and Shawn can hear her attempt to pull air into her lungs. Despite her feeling like she can't do much of anything she's great at following instructions especially if they'll help calm her down.

"First I want you to find a place to sit. If you need to just sit on the path that's okay too." Y/N nods as she ducks her head, placing her hand in her hair trying not to tug at her messy locks. "I'm at a bench."

"Good puppy. Now you said you're walking Circa, can you hold his collar or put your hands in his fur? I'm sure he'd love to feel helpful." That gets a little chuckle out of Y/N and Shawn internally whoops in celebrations. "Petting Circa." Y/N says. When she gets anxious she loves to step by step explain what she's doing or tell the person who's helping her that she's indeed following instructions.

"Good job baby. Now, what are five things you see in the park?"

Y/N takes a minute, trying not to focus on her chattering teeth. She's not cold, it's just the next step her body is trying to get the anxiety out. "Um, I-I see leaves, a s-stroller, a watch on a jogger, a squirrel, and shoes."

"Good job! Four things you can hear?"

"Cars, Circa whimpering, people talking, a kid laughing."

"3 things to touch?"

"My hands are numb, Bub."

"That's ok!" He assures. "Can you put some things up to your face. Don't worry everyone's wrapped up on their own things. No eyes are on you."

Y/N puts her cheek on top of sweet Circa's head. "Circa's fur, she's licking me and um, her tag hit my nose." Shawn chuckles at that a bit. "Good job bubby. I'm so proud of you. Next is 2 things you can smell?"

"That bakery and Circa needs a bath." Shawn chuckles. "Ok I'll keep that in mind. Taste? Do you have gum or something?" She nods. "I have mint gum." Y/N looks down when she feels pressure on her foot and sees circa laying on it, watching the park, guarding her human. "I'm feeling better hon. Thank you." Shawn exhales in relief, wrapping his arms around himself in a bit of a self hug. "I'm glad. Now listen. I want you to go to that bakery and get yourself a snack and a water got it?" "Mhm. Gonna go home after."

"Figured. You always get tired after your attacks. Takes everything outta ya."

Y/N rolls her head back on the ball of her neck closing her eyes as she feels the sun on her face.

"Yeah. I'd love it if you could hold me." She whines. She didn't mean it for it to come out as a whine but she's still not back to 100% yet and a hug sounds REALLY good right now.

"I'm sure Andrew and Kez would let me go if I told them you need me." Y/N can't see her boyfriend but she can just tell he's smirking, the bastard.

"No you do-"

"Shush, I'm coming. Give me twenty and I'll meet you there. Let's see who beats who home." Y/N sighs sort of relieved he's coming to her rescue. "Alright, If you're sure. I love you. I'll see you soon."

"I'll see you soon puppy I love you so much."

Y/N smiles. She attempts to stand and smiles at Circa when she doesn't stumble upward.

How the hell did she get so lucky.

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I started writing this short little one-shot to distract myself from an anxiety attack to calm down and it worked. I also decided to write this bc I know I'm not alone in it
Love you guys see you soon