The Guy I Met Last Night

Going crazy by thinking how much you understand me

You know I was thinking to make a exchange dairy for us, but then

I thought now you're not here, so by not start telling you everything by this way;

You have to understand that my emotions for you are fully exposed because it was only you who happens to be know me well enough to tell that, "what I'm thinking to what I'm going to do".

You can read me like an open book, "but when it comes to others", they just misunderstood me every time, like seriously how far people can misunderstand a person, huh?

When it comes to my family they just think that I have been doing bad things behind their back (my mother theory of understanding my behavior because I spent most of my time alone)like someone is stupid enough to think that about me.

When it comes to my father, brother and sister they just assumes that I'm useless and talent less person and I can't do anything and will became a burden to them forever (mother comes to this one also, she also think "I'm good for nothing person and will not achieve any success what so ever".) great supporting family I have gotten to myself into.

Now time for the world to understand me, "well when my own family doesn't give much mind to me, how can I expect anything from others", because in my half-life, I just hear others problems and when it's come to listen to my, no one was there to listen. That's why I decided to keep my secrets to myself, because becoming bad for other is fine as long as they keep their distant to me and my life.

But as the saying say, "I well-kept secret can be hidden for a while, but when the times comes to open it; that's when everyone can see it". Moral of the story no matter what happens do not let others see the real you (for they can be dangerous for you, like try and use your secret to blackmail you or something) for it can make your peaceful a living hell.

Well it was first time in my life where I find myself hating someone this much and the person I hate was not someone from my outside but from the inside.

You know I still wait for time to teach me a lesson, so I can start working and be able to make my future happen. You know it really stupid to think that, that time can heal everything because if it can then I will not be giving myself some excuse off nonsense to get myself permission to being lazy hag, yeah right I start to expect myself being lazy or so.

You know Rahul I really like you or should I say love (you make me believe it I never knew about It.) then now I really wanted to feel like invisible. You know I want to give my life to someone else because I am useless and I am just wasting it, this life is nothing but burden to me now.

Leave your comfort zone you will get what you are asking or dreaming.

When you get lazy all the hard work seems to be burden and most difficult thing ever in this world and yet you expect others to do the hard job.