Dating Scandal

19

First thing she is going to do when she has free time, Lisa promised to herself, is to get drivers licence.
"None of this shit would happen if I knew how to drive myself home. If Jungkook didn't drive me that night after party at his appartment, maybe we will never become close. If Jackson didn't follow me home the night we kissed, maybe he would never have that good opportunity and won't be brave to do that. And now this..."
That's what Lisa was thinking...if she could drive, she would be able to reject every man who wants to bring her home safely. "I would be alone, happy, independant woman who can drive a fucking car"

She and Jungkook didn't say a word to each other...it was so quiet that she was able to hear her own breathing. Silence can sometimes be comfortable, but this was not one of those. This silece reminded her on the night they were coming back from the pool wich brought more unpleasent memories.
"Why does he never turn on the radio? There will alway be music playing in my car especially in awkward situation."
Temperature in car was so high. It's because he turned on the heating. "Who does it before the winter comes? I'm sweating."

-Can you turn off the heating?-said Lisa at the end.

-Why?

-Because it's so hot here.-she saw Jungkook moving one side of lip up for a second, like he wanted to smile but suppressed urge to do that. And she knew why..she realized that what she said had double meaning but she didn't care. Whatever he thinks it's in his mind. She didn't take the shower the whole day and soon she would start to smell bed.

-Oh If you say so. It's just..you seemed cold so I tried to melt you. - "What? To melt me? He sounds like perverted creepy taxi drivers that used to drive me in my trainee days when I was very young."
Lisa decided not to answer him. He was obviously joking. She said she was hot so he wanted to give her an answer in the same style. It was not funny at all.
"Just ignore it, Lisa, you're home soon."

Time was passing terribly slow and Lisa was so happy when she saw her neighborhood.

-Thank you for the ride.- she said even before Jungkook parked his car, planning to get out as soon as he stops.

-Wow, I was right...you really are cold.-he said quietly, mostly for himself. After Lisa didn't react to this, he said louder- Can we have a talk before you go?

-I need to sleep.-she was looking at the window, prepared to leave the car and Jungkook wondered why she didn't look at him not a single time while they were riding. Is it because she hates him? She is not interested in him anymore? Or she was avoiding contact because she was afraid to do something her boyfriend wouldn't like? Whatever it is, he wanted to find out.
Jungkook authomatically locked all dors on the car, to prevent her from leaving.

-Just few minutes.

When Lisa realised she's been locked, she removed her hand from doorknob and returned to a normal seating position.

-What is it, Jungkook?-he was so stunned because she called him by his name. It sounds so good when she says it.- What do you want to talk about?- but she didn't give him time to answer. Instead, she just kept talking-
Because, all of this have allready happened. We've been there, on this place, in this car and talked, more than once. This is like some bed dejavu that I'm sick of. Is there anything new to be said?

-I'm in love with you.-said Jungkook suddenly- if that is even something new at all.

-What?-for the first time Lisa turned to look at him. She dreamed so many times to hear that coming from his mouth, and now it happened, and she wasn't sure if it's another dream or not. But she wasn't happy as she expected she will be. He choose the worst possible timing to say it.- Since when? Since I have a boyfriend and I'm happy so you want to ruin that for me? Are you that much of a narcissist?

-No. I was in love with you before that..this just made me be more open about it. But you must've known...

-Hell I knew. How could I? You were the one who wanted to be just friends! You told me that.

-Just because you said you don't want a relationship! I was planning to ask you to be my girlfriend that night, but after you said what you have said, I suggested to be friends, because that was the only way to stay close to you.

-Because you were treating me like a shit. God I have some dignity...of course I wouldn't say that I want a relatioship at that moment...-plus it was too dangerous to date, since half of the planet suspects that is exactly what's happening, but she didn't want to bring that topic.

-So..that means you wanted it? You wanted to be in relatioship with me? You weren't just having fun?-Lisa took a deep breath. It was so hard question. Yes, she wanted it...but she didn't at the same time, and she was afraid. Maybe she also didn't express all of it well and clearly, but it was too late to think about it.

-It doesn't matter anymore. It's something that is in the past, we should move on...I have a boyfriend, you have a girlfriend...We should enjoy our lives, don't you think so?

-I don't have a girlfriend anymore.-said Jungkook quickly- we broke up. It didn't work out.

"God why is he doing this to me? I moved on because I though he did, but now he's telling me that he actually didn't..."

-What? I thought it was something serious...

-It couldn't be serious..she was not the one. Is Jackson the one for you?-Lisas heart was beating so strange. It would beat very fast, than stop for few moments than beat again, than skip some beat and she felt like something was stuck in her troath which made talking and breathing almost impossible.

-This is so messed up.-she turned away from Jungkook and put hand on a doorknob again-unlock the door. I need to leave.

-Just answer the question. It's simple. Do you think Jackson is the right person for you?

-Yes. Yes, I think he is. Can you let me go now? - without saying anything, Jungkook pressed the button and the doors unlocked. Lisa got out of the car as fast as she could and almost running entered the gate of her dorm.

She cried the whole night, holding the pillow over her mouth, so her friends won't be able to hear her crying. She had no idea what caused those strong emotions...Was she sad? Upseat? Angry? Happy? All of above? Lisa didn't know. But she knew that those emotions would tear her apart if she didn't release them somehow.
"Jungkook is in love with me. Is that real?"
She didn't even know if she believed Jungkook in what he has said. He palyed games with her all along, why would he be hones now? And if he was honest, it's even worse. He wasn't there, and now when she has someone else, he conffess his feelings all of a sudden. What does he expect? That she will leave Jackson, who was nothing but good to her, and run into his arms? She can't do that, she doesn't want to. But knowing that she and Jungkook maybe missed their chance just because of missunderstandings...for some reason, it hurt her so much.