BILLIE-HALES & ZEALOUS

Chapter 17

CHAPTER SEVENTEEN

She's looking at Norm when she said this, which made a smile break across my face. Even though I'm breaking inside, I'm happy for them. I'm so glad some happiness came out of all that mess. I tell them this too I tell them I'm really happy for them.
"As for me, it turns out that the love of my life is leaving me. Hence the mess that stands in front of you."
She smiles, but I can see the sadness in her eyes too which makes me feel worse.
"You look beautiful, by the way. And your hair, wow, I don't think I've ever seen you with long hair before, it suited you. Though, I do prefer short hair. It makes you look like the rebel chick that you truly are. Well, if it's any consolation, he's an idiot. If he thinks leaving you will be a good thing? Then he's seriously delusional seriously he needs to give his head a shake."
She's grinning while I'm chuckling through my tears. I know it isn't funny, but I think it's what I need I do because I'm seriously losing my shit.
"Thanks, guys. Again, I'm so sorry for crashing in like this. I swear I'll get out of your hairs. I just needed to sort my head out. I really don't know what to do with this. I don't know how to handle the fact that I'm losing the love of my life and I've left him back there. He's back there with a skank. Sorry no she's not really a skank I don't even know her, but she's just been pissing all over him. Apparently, they were best friends when they were little. Well, their families were, convinced that they'd be together. Now it looks like, she's getting her wish. She has because he's moving to London. He's switching teams, it's where she lives too."
They're both looking at me with wide eyes total disbelief now written on their faces. Only Charlie lets out a big fat ha which makes my eyes snap to hers. All stood there in shock thinking that she's going to say something bitchy, but she doesn't. She puts me in my place telling me to get it together.
"Fuck me, I've never ever seen you look so defeated. This is not and never has been, the Billie-Hales I know and used to dislike. The Billie, I know would stand her ground and fight for what she wants, what she believes in. The Billie-rebel wouldn't allow some tart to get in her way and take away what doesn't belong to her. He's your man Billie, he's yours. Go back there and fucking get him. Don't let her win! She's probably back there now rubbing her hands together knowing you've run away like a pussy! Like a scared little girl with her tail between her damn legs. Trust me, if you walk away now it'll be harder to get him back, especially if she digs her claws in. Trust me, I know this I've done this. As you know, it didn't go how either of us had planned. Though it brought us both to the one, the only one.
Now, are you going to get upstairs sort your makeup out and go get your man? Or are you going to run away and crawl into a ball and turn into an old spinster with your sixteen cats? Because it will happen if you let him go it will happen.
So what if he moves teams? I mean, there are huge things called trains. Hell even planes if you wanna get there faster. Not forgetting you both have bloody cars too.
Billie, this isn't the end. His new team isn't the end for both of you.
I know about his dad and I know all about how he died too, but Billie, life is too short and Jax, of all people, knows this too.
He watched his dad collapsed on the pitch, and you'd think he'd run the other way, but he didn't. No, he kept his dad's memory alive. He'd carried on with the game because he knew. Billie, he knew that life is too short to run away from shit that scares us."
I'm stunned I'm completely stunned. Did she really just say all, of that to me?
Shit. Did she just call me, a pussy? What the fuck? But is she right? No, not the pussy part. No, is she right about going back? Should I go back there and fight for him? But that picture the way he'd looked at her. How do I compete with that?
Charlie suddenly cuts into my panicked thoughts again when she reminds me again of what I need to do.
"Billie, it's up to you now. Now you can either go get him, get the love of your life back, or you can walk away forever."

***

JAX,
A few hours earlier...

While I'm shaving, yes you heard me. While I'm shaving my beard off, Garret is having an argument with Daw. They're arguing about who's gonna get the most ladies running after them. Said something about, when this calendar comes out. Yes, I'm laughing to myself about it too. The only female who'll go anywhere near Daw is a fucking Ass. I don't mean a piece of ass either, no I mean, a fucking Donkey. Oh yes, that's going to happen. I've seen to it. Garret knows all about it, only because he found a guy, one who knows a guy. Well, he'd found us a Donkey. I didn't dare ask how he got hold of one. I was, too scared to. Seriously, Garret's one funky guy.
Anyway, I can't help myself when I call out making a donkey sound which makes Garret laugh his head off.