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Ch~Nicollette~

It was never forever.
  *crash*
That was the day, the omen I never imagine would turn out this horrible.

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"Miss Laxton?" The nurse calls for me.
"Yes."

I step into the room after an hour of waiting outside for the results. The Doc's room was very decent. I guess he is a minimalist and a plant enthusiast, the tiny bonsai on his window and the family picture frame. I wonder if I will ever get to buy a frame just like that. A family frame.

"Miss Laxton.?"
"Huh? Yes, Doc."

I blanked out again that was very rude of me but recently I have been blanking out often and would be forgetful all the time.

"You mentioned you were getting forgetful. Is that right? Miss Laxton?"

"Oh just Nicollette, please and yes often I would blank out and forget stuff."

The Doc lifts the X-ray of my report. My brain looks pretty enormous. I can't see anything from here but he did. The Doc scowls, furrows his brows and looks at me.

"Nicolette. Listen-" he huffs "-you have brain cancer. A tumour to be precise."

'Wait what!'
BRAIN CANCER. BRAIN TUMOUR.
A mass of abnormal cells in your brain. Yes, that tumour. That tumour in my head. My brain.

"..... it's a malignant one."
"A malignant one."

I guess that explains my recent behaviour. Personality changes. Seizures. Loss of hearing and difficulty in understanding words.

It was getting heavy.

"Then it's a good thing I came for a check-up." I smile.
" Nicolette. You're a very bright person. Most patients would freak out and cause a ruckus."

I chuckle.

"I'm unique I guess or maybe I'm not normal."

Silence. There was silence.

I'm struggling. Struggling to accept it as a part of me.

The White passageway smells of disinfectant, patients communicating with their families,  pink uniformed nurses monitoring health conditions and doctors running towards the ICU.
I'm here standing amid all actions going on.

I FEEL SO EMPTY.

The smell of coffee, freshly baked bread and pastries on display. It was already a hectic day yet this had to happen.

It's here the omen I had feared. Three. Three glass cups I broke (accidentally)this morning before I went to the Doctor's. It was all an indication that this was going to happen.

I hate this feeling. This feeling.

"No!" I shout.

Everybody's staring at us but I don't give a shit about that.

"Please Nicollette." He says.
"No, you don't get to beg me. Daniel don't do this to us."

This feeling I never wanted to feel in my life again. AGAIN.
It came creeping inside me as he said the words that burned me alive.

"Why?"
"Nicollette You know why and I'm sorry-"
"I don't need your half-ass apology."

This intolerable impression flooded my sanity and all that I could feel was black. The black I felt when I was at the clinic.

' Why Daniel Why.'

"Daniel. You were just messing with me for 3 fucking years? All the time we spent together? Was she worth all that you had to do this?"

"Yes."

The word shattered my world, the future I could no longer see. The Daniel I know loved and cared for would never yet he did.

"I reckon I was never enough for you."

'I don't wanna be here. Here, where he talks proudly about how he was just after my purity and dared to cheat on me. I was never enough for him.'

Everything is gone. The only love I retained was no more.

*clink*

I hear the door open and it was here the hurricane that swept me off the surface. He was the sentence and she was the full stop.

" Hey, honey you were kinda late-"

"You!" I yell.
"Oh"

She seemed amused.

I took a breath, clenched my hands, gritted my teeth and closed my eyes.

"Daniel, please don't tell me it's Teresa?"

'Please say no. Please say no. Please say n-'

"Yes. It's Teresa."

My sorrow turned into resentment, full of hatred for Daniel. He was such a disappointment that I could no longer abide by it.

It's frightening that the only emotion left in my heart for Daniel was Hatred.

I stood up and collected my stuff as I started walking out Teresa was smirking at me.

The audacity of this bitch.

"And oh Teresa thank you for picking the junk out of my life, do get a new job I was thinking of replacing you anyway."

Her smirk faded and I was happy. Happy yet my heart felt heavy and clear. No more emotion left to feel for a lifetime.

                  *BEES*

" HEY, GUYS I HAVE AWESOME NEWS.
GUESS WHAT I JUST BROKE UP."

                                   "WHAT!"

                                   "WHAT!"

                                   "WHAT!"

                                   "WHAT!"

                                   "WHAT!"

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