Journal

2/24/13

So I don't always have time to do this and I am sorry if you guys were expecting updates 24/7 I am just not like that. any way........

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So I was told on Thursday that I had to make a speech for my grandma's 80th birthday. I really did not know what I was going to say the woman has barly been in my life! I do love her a lot and I care about her but I didn't want to lie eather. My grandmother is the kind of person that if you don't give her something she doesn't care. I was not going to say that to her especially on her birthday. I found out that I was not the only one who didn't want to do it eather my cousins Josh and Greg did not want to do it eather. They basically said what I said "How can I say something about a person who doesn't make an effort to be in our lives?" I ended up not having to do it because my sister and I had bowling regionals so we were only at the party for five minutes. By the way when someone tells you they are taking the last picture and that you can leave they are lieing I promise you that.

Later at bowling I was bowling with this girl (guys I am deffinatly not a pro bowler my average is a 107 so I really don't think this girl was right in what she was doing but you might think I am wrong for thinking the way I do.) she was crying because she was bowling 130's 140's and I was bowling like an average in the 80's. I was not crying at all I was having the time of my life I wanted to tell this girl to just stop. I am a senior and there was no way I was going to make it to states! But you didn't see me crying about it I mean really? But I was bowling my heart out and I wanted to get last!! That way I could have went up to her and said see being in a top place does not matter what matters is that you really tryed your hardest and that was the best you could do! I am upset to say I placed 51st out of 53 places like I said I wanted last. You guys need to realize that high school basketball games, Cheer competitions, wrestling matches, volleyball games don't matter you just need to try your best and then if you fail at least you can say you faild doing the absoulte best you could. You are not going to win every thing and if you fail or lose because you were not doing your best then yes you should be upset because maybe you should have actually tried. Also don't do sports or anything for that matter just to make your parents happy if your not happy you should tell them that what they like doing is not what you like doing at all. They should understand if they care enough about you.

A long with this whole bowling thing I need someone to teach me why cheating is so important to some people? I mean reall? why cheat at a game would you like to go around saying yeah we won only because we cheated! No everyone will look at you disaproving and say well if they cheat at games maybe they cheat doing other things same goes for test in school. If you cheat you are only setting your selfs up to fail later. The team that was cheating made it to states with the team but when they were caught on Saturday they were told to stop and were monitored through the singles games. At the end of the day none of them made it to states because they didn't get to cheat. Also its not fair to everyone else who really tried and didn't make it to states. Please don't cheat you are not getting a head you are really stopping your self from reaching full potential. Especially in school work.

The last thing I have to say has nothing to do with bowling I think I said enough about that. Last week I wrote a Facebook status that said I whished I lived in the old days. Why would I say this well I said it because everyone was so much more polite and actually said yes sir and yes mam when talking to their fathers and mothers. Kids and teen did't mouth off because they would get spanked and punished. Kids had to respect to their elders if they didn't as my mom would say "there was going to be hell to pay." Basically you were not getting off easily! Also people talked properly there wasn't any slang unless you were not well educated. Guys worked in farms and were the best gentle men taking care of their women. When guys dressed they made sure their undergarments were covered and they had suspenders on. Even mobsters took care of themselfs and carried them selfs well. I mean I can't tell you how many times I walk around the mall and just want to pull guys pants up! Sorry guys its not hot! An attractive guy is one that wears a suit and his but is covered by his pants. But girls don't be laughing quite yet because the way some girls dress is not attractive eather. Girls stop wearing extreamly low cut shirts that show off almost all of your breasts. It gives people the wrong impression of  you. Also the less make up the better you don't need to cover the natrual beauty that you have and guy should be liking your personality not how skinny you are or how much cleavage you show. Make up is the same way. Hold your head high and if you think you are not beautiful enough to get a guy STOP!!! Look at your self if some one thinks you are to fat then forget them they obviously don't matter!!! If some one calls you a freak take it as a compliment that means you are unique and they haven't met some one like you before. If some one calls you a nerd take it as a compliment it means they think you are smart. If you feel like this at any time go to the mirror look your self in the eyes say out loud "I am beautiful!!!! I am special!! I do matter!! I am a person!!! I don't need everyone elses approval!! I AM ME!!!! I am _____________!!!!!!!!!!" That blank is for your name. Stay positive be your self some one will find you beautiful and if you think its going to happen in high school you are wrong. For some people it might but don't get your hopes up and don't sell your self short. Please ladies don't down grade if you think you are not worthy maybe the person you are after is not worthy of your love not the other way around and don't let people make you think other wise!