❝ 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐀𝐑𝐄 𝐀𝐋𝐖𝐀𝐘𝐒 𝐋𝐄𝐀𝐕𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐌𝐄 ❞

"𝑰𝒕'𝒔 𝒏𝒐𝒕 𝒂𝒍𝒘𝒂𝒚𝒔 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒕. 𝑺𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒕𝒊𝒎𝒆𝒔 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒎𝒊𝒏𝒅 𝒃𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒌𝒔 𝒂𝒔 𝒘𝒆𝒍𝒍."
— 𝑹.𝑯. 𝑺𝒊𝒏

The man is now sitting on the edge of the MahaNakhon Skyscraper, admiring the night city view before him. The night sky was aglow with bright city lights, the pale crescent moon shone like a silvery claw in the night sky, the beautiful stars that shine in the sky, although not as brilliant as the sun, are not as clear as the moon, but they sprinkle the dreamy light into the world, turning the earth into a strange world, inducing him to explore the starry sky.

The air is filled with a sweltering moisture, like a fog. Street lights and buildings lit up, like a night of pearls filled with bustling streets. Soaking in the ocean of light at night is like dressing a black curtain into a magical and beautiful world.

Porsche lets out a shaky breath before taking another drag of the burning cigarette, leaning his head against the pillar as he lets perfectly formed rings of smoke escape from his lips, leaving with a feather-like touch, more like a soft caress. His eyes followed along the direction of the smoke before it gradually faded and disappeared.

He then sees the cans of beer beside him, some were empty, some were not opened yet. His hand suddenly twitched, itching to grab another can and chug it down with all his might. Porsche shakes his head, 'I should stop drinking, Chay or Kinn won't be happy if I got drunk again-'

Why not? It's your last night tonight anyways, just drink to your heart's content before you go.

They don't care anyway.

Porsche felt a heavy weight in his chest, his heart beating heavily against it, he instantly grabbed another can of beer, opened it and forced the alcoholic drink down his throat. His nose burned at its sour scent, a sweet taste followed by an aftertaste of bitterness on his tongue, the foam slowly bubbling and dissolving away.

Sweet before bitter, just like his life.

Porsche laughs as tears began to fall from his eyes, he watches the city lights and stars that glowed in the dark skies, creating a beautiful painting before his eyes.

Pathetic! You are so pathetic Porsche Kittisawasd! Can't even keep the man or your brother or anyone!

He took another drag of his cigarette as he recollects everything that happened during the past year: Meeting Kinn, leaving Chay, working as a bodyguard for the most powerful mafia clan in Thailand, falling in love with Kinn, meeting Tawan, Vegas betraying him, Chay finding out about his job, Chay dating Kim, his mother being alive throughout this whole time and him becoming the head of the minor family. That year was a whole shitshow and just thinking about all the events made Porsche's head hurt and spin.

Porsche would be lying if he said he didn;t miss his old life, the life he had before meeting Kinn or the Theerapnaykuls. Although it was harder, tougher and tiring, it was simple . It wasn't complicated, things were clear cut: No money, get jobs no matter what, need to pay debts and school fees for Chay: entertain the customers and get tips or enter fight rings and win the fights. Cuts, wounds, bruises, unwanted touches, at least he could handle it. Things were clear, easy to see, identify and the solutions....hard to gain but at least there is a solution. And most importantly,