You were never mine

Just when I decide to move on

I dream of you.

But I want you. I want that feeling. That love that fills up my heart with oceans soaked in sunshine. I want that passion. Only you make me feel that way.

In my dreams, you pulled me close while we laid in on a mat on the floor. And just like that, everything was perfect. All the sorrow and hurt in the world couldn't touch me. Because in your arms, I am safe. You whispered to me, "Kuv hlub koj." And it shook my heart. Those were the words I wanted to say to you. Those were the words I always wanted you to tell me. And in my dreams, it finally came true.

Even if I can't have you in real life, I hope to be with you in my dreams. It's the only place where it's just the two of us. The only place I could pretend that I even had an ounce of your love. It is enough for me. And when I wake up, I know you're happier now. But I'll continue to just be happier in my dreams.

I know you'll forget about me. But just know that I won't forget about you. I told you I'll always love you and I meant it. If you knew me at all, you'd know it is the truth. You'll move on, love another. But I will still be here. Know that, there is always someone out there that loves you. That there is always someone out there that thinks about you. Someone who will always love you unconditionally. That the bad, the darkness couldn't scare them away. Someone who will kiss all your scars and tell you you're beautiful. Know that that someone will always be me. Even when I'm far away, and I move on, I will never stop being that person for you.