[DISCONTINUED] Feeling Down - The Music Freaks

Another Failed Friendship

Jake's POV:
I dropped to my knees in the music club, crying. Who recorded it, and what did I do to deserve it? My mind was filling with thoughts, that I couldn't even focus on one. My cheek was still stinging from Milly slapping me, but I didn't even care about that. I was way too involved with what had happened. A waterfall of emotions came piling down on me as I realised something that I didn't want to realise.
My own friends were the only ones who could've recorded it. I was fucking betrayed. I started to panic as my emotions were growing bigger and more recognizable. Anger. Regret. Guilt. Confusion.
When my mind came to that horrible conclusion, my tears flowed more and more. My friends since freshman year, the people who I'm the closest with, ruined my life. I didn't know what to do, but I knew that I needed to leave before I get screamed at again. I tried taking deep breaths to help calm me down, but that didn't help entirely. I stopped breathing so heavily, but the tears wouldn't stop. I figured it was good enough, nobody would notice. Right?

I walked out of the music room, looking down at the ground. I covered my mouth with my hand so people wouldn't know I was crying, but I was hiccuping a bit. The tears had stopped for a bit, leaving my eyes burning. I put down my hand and looked up. I saw Liam, Henry, and Drew standing in front of their lockers. They were all talking, happily. I assumed they didn't know what happened, but how did they not see the entire club chasing after Hailey? Did they just ignore that, or did they actually know?
"Hey, Jake!" A familiar voice interrupted my thought process. It was Drew. He was smiling at me, but his happy expression formed into a worried and shocked one. "Woah, what happened?"
Liam's eyes widened when he saw me, but Henry was really confused. I wanted to say something, but my voice was shaking too much. I cleared my throat before trying again. "How do you not know?" I managed to mutter out. Henry looked way more confused that he already did.
"How are we supposed to know?" Henry asked. His tone made him sound rude, but I knew he wasn't trying to be.
"Who recorded it." I demanded.
"Recorded what?" Liam asked. He had a joking edge to his voice. "You and Drew kissing?" Liam smirked, obviously trying to make light of the situation. Even though he knew nothing. Drew looked at him in annoyance, and mouthed the words "shut up".
I clenched my fists. "I'm not joking around, Liam." My voice was shaking. I couldn't tell if it was from me crying, or my anger. "Remember the bullcrap I said about the club?" My voice went a bit quiter, I don't know why.
"Yeah? That wasn't really bullcrap, though. It was true." Drew said.
"No, it wasn't! I meant none of it!"
"Then why did you say it?" Drew's voice softened, and his tone had a hint of genuine confusion.
"You!"
"Me?"
Liam and Henry's mouth dropped slightly.
"Yes, and all of you!"
"Why are you blaming us, Jake?" Henry was shocked.
"All of you made me believe that the club was using me!" My vision fogged up from tears, but I quickly wiped them away. Drew furrowed his eyebrows.
"They are." Drew's tone was how he spoke to Zoey now. Angry.
"They weren't! It's your fault that I'm fucking kicked out of the club!"
"We didn't make you say that."
"Uh, yes you did! If you guys didn't say all those things to me, then I'd still be happy!"
Drew looked taken aback. "You...What?"
I screwed up yet again. I said something that could ruin my life, again. I chose to stay silent, there wasn't anything else to say anymore. However, my friends didn't seem to get that.
"Why wouldn't you tell us!?" Okay, now Drew sounds like he's blaming me for not being happy around them. Seems legit. "We would've done whatever we could to help!"
Liam and Henry agreed with Drew. "This isn't about that." I stated. My nails were starting to dig into my palms. "You guys betrayed me. I didn't do anything wrong to you, so why on Earth would you want to ruin my life?!"
"We didn't even want to do that!" Liam exclaimed. "I didn't even know what would happen."
"Me neither!" Henry said. I was only getting angrier every moment they tried to defend themselves.
"So then why was it recorded!?" I started to raise my voice. "Why would you get me to say that if you didn't want to screw up my life!?"
"I wanted you to know that the club was toxic for you!" Drew yelled, completely ignoring my first question. "They were using you, Jake!"
"No the hell they weren't! You were just mad at me for having a hobby that you don't like!"
"I was mad because you were replacing us with the stupid club!"
My eyes widened. "How was I replacing you?"
"You'd spend all of your time with the fre-...club, that you completely shut us out."
"The competition requires 90% of my time. It was really important to me!"
"How were you just suddenly interested in music? You never even brought up music before!"
"Did it not occur to you that, say, I have emotions and I was scared!?"
"I'm done. I'm fucking done." I felt a wave of anxiety crash over me when Drew said that. His voice was shaking, too. Was I being mean to him? I thought. When I looked over, I saw that Henry looked guilty, and Liam was incredibly focused.
"You know what?" I felt tears start to form in my eyes. "So am I."
I walked to my locker and opened it. I grabbed my phone from my bag, and left the building. There was no point in me being there anyway, it was the end of last period and the bell was just about to ring. As I was walking away, I heard crying. I ignored it completely and sped up my pace.