Bucky Barnes Oneshots

Born To Die

It's pouring rain as you walk through the city streets, the rain is mixing with my tears. your cold, alone and all I want to do is go back home. You and Bucky got into another argument about the same thing- it's always about the same thing. He's never home, always on missions. When he is home he's too tired to do anything. Too tired to even talk to you.

It's not like you asked him to stop doing missions, you just asked him to take a break or go on less missions. He took it the wrong way though, he always takes it the wrong way. You know he feels this need to do as much good as possible to try and make up for everything he did as the winter soldier, but it's not fair to you. Was your love not enough? As you start to go over the fight in your head you cry some more.

"Your never here Bucky" You already had tears streaming down your face before he even got home

"Do we have to do this now? I just got home, I want to relax." Sighing as he sat on the couch

"Yes we have to do this now. You go missions for day's and then you come-"

"I GET IT! OKAY? I fucking get it I'm never home and when I am I barley interact with you. It's all I fucking here about all the damn time" He puts his head in his hands

"Do you even love me anymore? Because you don't do this to people you love. You don't leave them for days on end and when you finally come home you don't ignore them, you don't disregard their feelings, you don't tell them there being dramatic, you ju- just don't do that" Your voice sounded so broken, Bucky's heart broke a little

"Oh come on, of course I love you. I have loved you since the first day I saw you" he says while getting up and trying to come over to you

"No" you whisper walking away from him out the door

Now here you were walking on some street, god you used to be so happy with Bucky. He was your first everything, you don't know if you would still be breathing today without him. You remember the first time you met him

You walked into the bookstore, you've gotten back into reading recently and have been going to the book store recently. This book store is your favorite you come in here almost every week to get a new book.

As your walking to the romance section when someone bumps into you, you stumble back a little

"Oh shit I'm sorry, are you okay" The man say

When you look up you see one of the hottest guys you have ever seen.

"Oh yeah I'm good, are you okay?"

"Yeah Im fine" he smiles while looking at you, Bucky's heart was beating faster just by looking at you.

"That's a good book" you said pointing at the book he was holding

"Yeah, it looks good. I'm not really the reading type of person, but i've been trying new hobbies"

You and Bucky talked for about 10 minutes. You exchanged names and numbers after that. The rest was history. You went on about 5 dates before you had sex for the first time together, then then about 4 months later he finally asked you to be his girlfriend. He told you about his past on the first date. He honestly thought you would have left but you stayed. You knew he had to go on missions often, but he promised that he would never get caught up in his work, he promised that his work would never become more important than you. Clearly Bucky isn't very good at keeping his promises.

As a child you were confused a lot of the time. You often wondered if you or anyone has a purpose in life if they were just going to die. It really just seemed like you were Born to Die. Bucky had given you a purpose though and for some time it seemed you had given him one too. It really does not seem like that now though. What it seemed like was that you were not enough for him or love was not enough.

You keep walking down the street, your heart breaks every time step you take. You wonder would couples therapy fix anything, not like bucky would even have time for it. Maybe Sam could talk some sense into him, yeah like Bucky ever listens to what Sam says. Out of no where a car comes racing down the road and parks next to you. Its Bucky that gets out of the car and runs over to you.

"I am so fucking sorry" He says cupping your face with his hands before he kisses you hard in the pouring rain.You cry even harder, you miss him so much.

"I'm taking time off missions for a while, you are so much more important than work. I need you to know that. I need you to feel that" he said staring in your eyes

"Come on, let's go home doll" Your heart melted as he said that he hasn't called you doll in so long.

You both get in the car,a small smile on your face because you felt things were finally going to get better. You knew it would take some time but that was okay.

Bucky's hand was on your thigh as he drove, you were about 10 minutes away from home. You couldn't wait to get home, change out of your wet clothes and cuddle with Bucky. You came to a red stop light. Soon the stop light turned green and Bucky started to drive. You look at the window to see 2 headlights coming towards you. Everything seemed to just stop, you saw light but nothing like what you saw before this light felt peaceful. It was like nothing you have ever felt. As you thought before maybe you were just Born to die.