Today was like any other day except I had to deal with a dumbass who thought she was hot shit. I have learned not to allow other people to control my actions. So with that being said i laughed in her face.
I have come to point in my life that I really don't have the energy to argue with people. Shit I don't have the patience either. I start off by saying a few words but as I get more and more angry I begin to move forward. Until I'm close enough to swing and connect.
Many have said I anger issues and they be right. I frankly just don't care. I'm dealing with people's shit so I react.
I have come to learn and understand that not everyone is going to handle things like yourself. Not everyone will have the balls to call someone out on their bullshit. I used to really get upset when I came across people like that. Now I shake my head and keep it moving.
I just don't get why people can't keep funky. Why not be honest and tell it like it is. I feel thag by being a coward and a lier is just too much work. I don't have time for people like that.
When I was younger i feared confrontation. I would hide behind some one else. Fear is a motherfucker. It cripples you. You walk your whole life on this straight and narrow path because you fear the unknown. Never starying to far from the sidewalk. Until some shit hits the fan and you snap. When that thing in you snaps everything becomes that much more clearer.
At times i question myself tho. I feel that at times I'm a shitty person and that i could have turned out so mucb better. Unfortunately life doesn't work that way so here I am. I know I could always be better but hopefulmy through the years I will become better. If not then fuck it i guess.
Anyway this won't be a long entry because well I'm actually reading several books on Wattpad. I just wanted to let this shit go. I honestly have a damn headache. Which by the damn way I've had all fucking week. It's not a fucking leech that just won't come off. It's actually aggravating the hell out of me. Im tired of taking pain meds for it. So fuck it! I deal with it.
My homeboy from work is here but I don't feel like entertaining shit right now other than my lovely bed. So his ass is downstairs watching the game with ed. I at least cooked so pretty much fuck off.
Yea yea yea I know that sounds ultra mean but I tend to be more aggresive when i have these headaches. On that note I'm ghost. My eyes are getting heavy and I just want to get layed and go to sleep. One I'm not getting so I'm going to enjoy the other one. ✌
