His Escape Route

"Polaroids"

Both of you were having dinner while you were blabbering about all sorts of stuff you saw throughout the day. But Jungkook was'nt paying attention to none. You noticed something off about him lately -

"Are you alright babe...?" you asked worried.

"Yeah sorry I was just thinking about the comeback" he lied swiftly.

"You should not press yourself towards the end jungkook, me and your friends are here to help you out, Please talk to us if anything is bothering you ok? We will try our best". You smiled at him brightly while squeezing his hands warmly.

Jungkook felt an ounce of guilt rushing through his veins. He wondered how God made you end up with a traitor like him. He sure knew that fate was playing dirty with you. A sudden urge made him pop out the question -

"Y/N, What if a person falls out of love in a beautiful relationship that was cursed from the start...?" he asked slightly hinting his thoughts.

"Well I think Universe did that person dirty who is still in love with that "fallen out of love person" I think and above that I think its not that person's mistake either because its not in that person's hands whether he will fall in love or fall out of love - It's the heart that decides it, so you can't really control it" you said.

The answer made Jungkook kinda relieved thinking that maybe you will understand his situation in near future.

"Why are you asking me this suddenly Jungkook? Did u fall out of love?" you laughed jokingly.

This made Jungkook freeze. 

The expression on Jungkook's face tingled a small fear inside your heart.

Jungkook fake laughed to cut down the tension.

"No, I was just asking casually, heard this kind of stuff today in radio way back home"

Here you go another lie.

While washing the dishes, the earlier conversation did'nt leave your mind. They were circling around your head, creating bad scenarios.

Shaking them off, you were about to enter your bedroom when you saw Jungkook looking intently at something near the closet. When you entered, Jungkook swiftly took the thing and put it into a box which was visible to you for seconds. You jumped on him trying to take whatever was in his hands playfully while laughing and giggling thinking that it would be some picture of you taken by him secretly and was admiring it.

"Come on Babe, show me what is it..?" You whined cutely.

"It's nothing Y/N, Just some pictures from my old dorm".

"Show me too, I wanna see your teenage pictures too" You tried to grab from his hands.

"WHY CAN'T YOU UNDERSTAND Y/N!! I DON'T WANNA SHOW YOU MY PERSONAL PICTURES!! DAMN IT" he yelled frustrated at your childish plays.

You were stunned. He had never yelled at you. But now you knew that pictures must be very special to him and personal. You were on verge of tears. 

Jungkook looked at your tearful eyes and guilt began building up inside his heart.

"I am sorry baby...It was just that this pictures are what can I say nudes taken by my friends back when we were teens and I wanted to get rid of them without showing you these traumatizing pictures" he laughed lightly and hugged you.

"I am sorry too, Koo, acting like immature child" you apologized too.

"No baby Its fine get some sleep okay? Ill be right back after dumping this."

You nodded and got under the sheets.

Jungkook rushed out of the bedroom and onto the last room at the end of the hallway. He opened it with a special key and closed the door behind cautiously after entering. The room was dark with brown wallpaper and pictures and notes attached to the walls. On the table laid more polaroids of his friends, school friends and one special person - His Kang Mee.

He opened the box that he brought from earlier without showing Y/N claiming that they were inappropiate pictures. He took them one by one revealing them to be pictures and polaroids of hsi first love. Lots and lots of pictures of their first date in highschool, thier library dates of college, secret pictures of them in her room when he sneaked in once and their graduation picture together. All this memories made Jungkook's heart clench. While taking all them out, one specific picture fell down which Jungkook picked from the floor - It was a picture of you holding two ice creams in both your hands. He chuckled thinking about that day when he accidentally brought his favourite camera, with which he reserved to click only pictures of Kang Mee and you made him take your picture with his camera after several pleadings and he agreed reluctantly feeling kinda annoyed to take your picture. 

He chuckled sadly how he has no pictures of you throughout the relationship while he had pictures of his first love almost in every corner of the room and there you had an entire gallery of his pictures - most of them which were taken secretly or after several pleadings from you

But you never noticed how most of the smiles were forced and how you both don't have a single polaroid together...

Jungkook returned to the bedroom and laid beside you. He was starin at your moonlit face and started to think about all the red flags he has done for you yet you don't seem to notice at all because you were too immersed in his love. 

He gradually fell asleep thinking how he would become the cause of your tears...