Station 19 & Grey's Anatomy One-Shots (& More Shots)

SURRERA-IS IT HOT IN HERE?

DIANE'S ADVICE:

Fix the problem

Work on winning each other over again.

Re-ignite the romance again.

Go on dates

~DIANE~

'I want to ask you something Herrera and I'd appreciate you're being
straight with me...was the afternoon with Beckett real or fiction?'

~ANDY~

'FICTION...I'd had several shots and he had to have been drunk-based on what we now know about his alcoholism...he couldn't get it up so I slept in my truck until I sobered up enough to drive. I spread that rumour to piss Robert off-that I would stoop so far below his level...it backfired spectacularly, you could say.'

Fix the problem

Work on winning each other over again.

Re-ignite the romance again.

Go on dates

The first thing that Diane Lewis asked Andy Herrera was: "What are you least proud of all this ...mess that's been created?"

"I'm least proud of the mistakes I made that caused my spouse pain and split us up." The therapist nodded; it was clear to her that her patient has recognized the devastation her actions have caused. It was a tough situation for all of us. I've always had difficulty apologizing for my misdeeds and I'm working on getting better at that-really working on it instead of going through the motions as I have in the past, with other therapists. You have helped me so much with that. I can't figure out how to live with what I've done. It's...hard ..."

Diane said "The one thing that I can promise is that it will be hard," Dr. Lewis smiled.

(prior to the above visit with Diane, Andy found Robert and tried to talk to him about their very contentious in-person contacts-he spends as much time as he can 'subbing out' to other stations in order to stay as far away from her as he can-Beckett is no longer a burr under his saddle due to his forced retirement.)

"I don't understand why you can't just leave me alone! I don't want to be AROUND YOU RIGHT NOW! I CAN'T be around you!" Robert cried his voice full of anguish.

"I-I...um...I need to get going: I um have my first therapy session with Dr. Diane in 45...I'll t-try to not bother y-you anymore; I'm sorry for upsetting you and I truly regret everything I've done to make your life a living hell over the past eleven and a half months. You deserved better-deserve better. You don't want to hear this from me-I know that but I can't help saying it: I still love you: I DO...I'll stop talking now; you said the other night that you can't stand the sound of my whiny voice. 'Bye Robert."

"WAIT...was any of it true? And if so which parts-that 'we confused lust for love-protocol for respect?...that you love me but you don't respect me?' ' Or that 'we're all we have?' 'Through good times and bad...for better or worse...in sickness and health?' Or maybe 'I can't
go there with Beckett again because it's too messy'? You were so ashamed and regretful that you told anyone who would listen about it: BRAGGED about it while taking shots...you know I think now that what you told Gibson-the 'reserve dick'-that we don't really know each other is absolutely correct."

"I...I didn't mean any of that: what I said to Jack, the bragging, that we don't know one another at all...I DO RESPECT YOU, my vows, that I I wasn't only ashamed and SO REGRETFUL but embarrassed as well. Each time I said I love you I meant it-every time...when I said that if
those cowards had killed you at the trafficker's house that I may as well have died too. All of it was true and is true. Couldn't you tell by the way that I looked at you : ¿las miradas mias, llenas de amor y de cariño no fueron comprobantes suficientes? (Weren't the looks of love and affection proof enough of my love?). If I could just..."-