Chester X Charlie (Ongoing)

[5] A gentleman

Charlie's POV:
I packed my stuff with hesitation, wondering if it was even safe to go out, I can't imagine going outside again with out knowing the possibilities, I obviously asked Chester before going out. He needed to know if I was gonna be safe from where I was going. Awh, he's so sweet and protective for that! Gave him a kiss before saying goodbye, and he hoped for protection among the trip to see my brother " isaac " after a while. But it wasn't long til I realized Chester gave an obvious sense that he has separation anxiety. The relationship we had wasn't too long from now, it had only been 2 weeks and he's already attached. This was painful to discover. Knowing that I planned to meet my brother and all his joy to see me. It was a hard decision and I couldn't bring Chester either way, otherwise our relationship wouldn't be a secret. Chester hugged me from behind saying so much words like "I'm gonna miss you" "please stay safe " "how long will you be gone for?" It brought so much pain to me and I hope he knew, it was painful for both us! He couldn't go, and I can't stay, I had it planned a week ago, it wouldn't be safe to bring Chester either, knowing his friends would be curious to where he was.

I asked Chester if there was anyway he can possibly go without being recognized, he said "there would be no way". That was pretty doubtful of him but I absolutely agreed. So I began to take all my stuff back to the house that was just sitting in the car. I felt guilty for changing plans with Isaac I thought I was so careless about my family. As if I only cared about Chester then anyone else. I tried to not overthink but it was crawling in me.

Chester's POV:
I wasn't sure how Charlie felt while he was taking back his suitcase. I understand how much his brother means to him but, I feel ashamed don't I. I asked Charlie if he was okay since he looked pretty sad. He didn't respond but I was desperate for him to answer me. I said "Charles..Are you okay." He didn't respond again, I was so devastated, I might of ruined his mood, did I? I tried to think realistically and didn't worry about it. It couldn't have been me. I hugged Charlie again, hoping this wasn't bothering him. I saw his face forming a slight smile. What could I do to make it bigger? I pondered for a moment. I wanted to give Charlie a kind little discussion about how he was feeling. He didn't want me to know how he was feeling. He assumed I'd get annoyed, but I obviously wouldn't, I don't know why he's thinking that! He should feel trusted. I asked once again if he was okay.

He exhaled and said "nah, but anyways-" I interrupted him as he was gonna change the topic, I just wanted him to talk about his feelings, he was in so much denial when I asked. I got tired of it and didn't realize I was raising my voice once I said "Well why won't you tell me, just give me a hint, please!???". I begged to Charlie I wouldn't raise my voice at him again, he didn't like it at all, but he understood why. I apologized and he told me about his experience with his own household.

His brother had/has good support to him during those days living together, and he wanted to have a visit. Ever since the relationship happened, he couldn't visit him see often, at least call if it's the closest to communicating, he told me he felt very guilty for not visiting his brother. He was weeping on my chest while saying how ashamed he was feeling. I stroked his long hair, trying to relax him as he cried. He only wanted to stay just for me. I felt just as pity when he said that. I can't believe my boyfriend did that just for him to stay. I was quite angry, that he would cancel something that was important to him, just for me!!! It didn't feel good. I want him to be happy, and have privilege to do what he did even before the relationship. I felt like as if I was trapping him in this barrier of only doing things for my satisfaction. It wasn't a good feeling, AT ALL!

If only Charlie knew how special he was in my eyes. He doesn't deserve this mindset of guilt. I hugged him again ,tightly this time. I told exactly those words to Charlie, if he wants to do something or go somewhere, don't ask me, just do it. He didn't agree with me, after the big incident with the group. He felt very unsafe.

Charlie's POV
Chester's words comforted me like always, I just wish I agreed with him on what he said. I can't go anywhere now can I. I feel like I'm being against by a lot of people only cause of the stupid crap I've done. I tried my best to at least think positively about this. Chester smiled as I nodded, agreeing with him. I just didn't have a good feeling about it, but I trust Chester. He is a good boyfriend, I want him to know that if he doesn't himself.

I faced chester, grabbed his hand gently, saying "Chester, you are such a gentleman, do you know that?" I kissed his hand and we both just... Ugh, this hugging thing is getting out of control.. But we love it!!! It's just, how we bond! He's so cute, I can't handle it, can I. Afterwards, we continued the day normally, it meant a lot to me that he showed his respect. I knew chester would show it, he is a sweet man after all!!