My Suicide Attempt (My Story)

September 11, 2012

Why do they hate me so much? Just because I'm an Atheist? So, hating people because they're an atheist? Oh. Great..

Let me introduce myself first. I'm Lee. 15 years old. I'm studying in a Catholic School here in the Philippines as a Third Year High School Student.. I'm a Junior and I'm an Atheist.

Last September 2012, I did a suicide attempt. I cut myself on the wrist. I had over 20 cuts on my left wrist. 

I'm not exageratting... It's true.

Most of them are deep cuts.

Why did I commit suicide?

Because I can't take it anymore.

I go to school every fucking day to hear people gossiping about me.

They are gossiping me about being an Satanist. 

Fuck off. How can I be an Satanist if I'm an Atheist?

Use your brain crap heads! 

They bully me Physically too!

Great, right?

I couldn't take it anymore then I attempted to commit suicide.

How come I'm still alive?

I did my attempted suicide at the old publication's office room. I did it there since people barely go there.

Then when I collapsed on the floor, the last thing i knew was I was being carried by a guy..

Hey hey! Not my boyfriend, k? 

When I woke up hours later, i was in the school clinic.

There's a white something wrapped on my left wrist.

And then beside me was my older cousin, Xavier, standing.

He was the one who carried me the the clinic.

He advised me to listen to BMTH, PTV, SWS, SS, etc whenever I feel depressed. 

At first my reaction was like "No way." "what the heck" things like that..

But when I got home, I listened to them and searched for their lyrics...

And that...

for me thatsaved my life..

Music Saved my life..

They are my heroes.

I don't care on what you say.

They are my heroes.

I'm such a crap to think of that?

Well, fuck off! They saved me!

I always feel like committing suicide but that stops because of them!

Because they inspire me!

Okay. So fuck off!

They are my heroes.

It may sound shit and weird, but it's true.

They saved my life.

Not all heroes wear capes.

Wrists are for bracelets not cutting.