No mercy, motherfucker

first fight.

!self harm.
We got in the car. The whole car ride was silent. All i knew was Terry was going 90 in a 50 zone.
He was pissed. We arrived to his house. He still got out and opened the door for me. He didn't even say anything to me. We went inside and he slammed the door.
"What the fuck arabella." Terry said. I was shaking and already on the verge of crying. "I-." I tried to talk but he cut me off. "You enjoyed that little shit face looking at you." He yelled. "I didn't! Let me explain" I was crying at this point. "Okay maybe he was a little cute! But nothing like you! The only reason i blushed is because i didn't have anything else to do!" I yelled back to him. "You enjoyed it! You admit it you attention whore." He yelled back at me. "Fuck you terry." I said.
I stormed off towards my room and slammed the door. I didn't want to go back to this. But.. sometimes it just felt like the only resort. I took a blade and just cut all down my wrist and thighs. As i was cutting I thought about everything I have gone through. Loosing my dad. Not knowing my mom. Moving in with Terry. I loved Terry but sometimes he drove me crazy.
I herd something so i quickly hid the blade. Shit im still bleeding. It was to late. Terry had walked in and saw the cuts and blood on my thighs. "No.. no no." Terry said. He ran into my bathroom and grabbed the first aid kit. He came back out and cleaned every cut and put a bandage on them. While he was doing that he said. "Arabella you dont have to say anything, i know your probably pissed at me but. Why do this, i would have rather talked it out then to have to see you like this. "B-because." Tears rolled down my face. He wiped them of my face as i was talking. "It just feels like i cant have a single relationship with anyone it always ends up in an argument, i didn't want to fight anymore so i just did this as my last resort." I said.
Terry hugged me. "Arabella, i love you, please dont ever do this again. This whole fight was my fault." Terry said. I hugged him back and said. "Lets just say its both of our faults so i dont get pissed." I smiled a little bit. "Fine...." Terry said. "I have a question Terry?" I said. "Go ahead." He said. "Can i just sleep with you tonight?" I asked. "Of course love." He said. He picked me up and brought me to his bed. He climbed in and pulled the blankets over us. "Goodnight love." He said. "Night."