Future Mumbai

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Note: I just want readers to be aware that this would talk about heavy topics such as mental health and poor mental health states, psychosis, etc. and I will be mentioning a bit of my own psychosis experience as someone in mental health recovery. if these are not comfortable topics then I would highly suggest to look at my other stories instead although they tend to be heavy handed as well, just not quite to the same degree. I also wanted to warn anybody before they saw BPD, since there is a lot of stigma surrounding it and I mention myself being in recovery. I also want to note that I am not professionally diagnosed but I have collected quite enough information to know that it is a psychosis I have been suffering through throughout pretty much half my life starting from adolescence on words and I have realize that my own personal growth journey and healing journey has then slowly but surely leading me out of my condition. This note is a disclaimer, and professional help is highly advised if you are in crisis or need direction. Not that I discourage self-exploration, but help from a medical professional can be exceptionally helpful in learning about yourself and is highly recommended.

Now, without further ado,

As someone in BPD recovery, I agree with you but also in a way it's kind of logical to have it tied with villainy because a lot of times due to our elaborate traumas shaping the perspectives we have of the world around us, many of us can behave villain like. This is why also a lot of people with BPD especially in younger generations really like edgy stories where the main character is a misunderstood person on the verge of violence. I myself actually as a means to keep myself from getting so engulfed in my condition that I would lose my conscience and become extraordinarily violent, when I was 16 I started working on a story about a young girl who experience nothing but hardship growing up and as a result was in constant fight or flight mode and lived under an oppressive government that specifically targeted the financially unstable and the housing and food insecure as well as abused. She had no one to give her love, she had to fend for self by stealing food and doing other things to keep yourself alive. Sleeping at night was the scariest thing for her, because there were people in exactly her situation who were 20+ years older than her and had cybernetic augmentations so they could literally do anything to her while she tried to sleep at night. One day when she was five years old, a seemingly loving and gentle man came to her aid and as much as she thought him, he still stayed patient and loving towards her and finally her trust in humanity started to come back... Until it was all for scientific experimentation anyway, which the abuse didn't become completely apparent to her in till it was way too late . Now, Forever has locked away her ability to trust another human being ever again, is back on the streets, but now with the mysterious glow in her once dark brown irises. No one knows how the experimentation affected her and what they resulted in besides her eyes, but she over the years gained notoriety for being one of the most dangerous criminals in the downtown area of the city. She'll do anything, everything, to retain her dignity, even if it means at the cost of the law, other peoples dignity, and their lives. This is up until she has finally been deemed worthy of the high court, in which she's granted an indefinite fate that could change her life forever... I decided to name this story Utopic Mumbai, which I originally intended to turn into a manga. I currently have it on the back burner as I'm attending to other projects right now, and thankfully I'm not nearly in the same desperate situation as I was then, but I still have this story that I want to work on because I'm sure someone out there who currently feels as alone and desperate as I once did when I originally came up with this plot, this might be the single key that helps them feel comforted and empathize enough to encourage a wanders path of healing and recovery, which will take many years but it will feel amazing at the beginning, to recognize, they are not evil for feeling angry and violent, they are just a hurting person and to know that someone else was hurting enough to that they created this story, may warm their heart just enough that they might trust humanity just a bit more that they start to finally go in the direction of health and recovery and feel happy and at peace for once and feel empathy of others again As a result of helping themselves and loving themselves again