A headache bouncing back and fourth within one's head
that one bitter taste within your mouth you seem to just not be able to get rid of
the turning of one's stomach, seems every time they move their stomach has to growl, or move, and even fold.
What does it all mean? What does that feeling in the back of your throat, like it's prepared to vomit, mean?
Is it stress?
Is it lack of something?
Perhaps it's just one of those days.
Those days where even getting out of bed is hard.
Everything seems to be 10x harder on those days
Those days suck, I happen to lack confidence on those days.
It takes me hours to even stand up,
I have to fight every bone in my body to stay away from that razor.
To stay clean.
To stop the urges of just running it against my wrist over and over again.
So, instead I lay there.
Feeling worthless,
Like im not deserving of any love or kindness.
Perhaps I'm not,
Perhaps I deserve to be treated like dirt.
I'm okay with that,
I'd treat myself like dirt too, if I was my own friend.
