I'm very happy with my artstyle, it looks almost like what I imagined in my head aha but sometimes I hate it.
like, I hate how I draw certain things but I dunno how to stop drawing things that way.
also, I'm very unoriginal with my poses. I usually draw people in the same pose because I'm not good at drawing them in other ones.
I don't really make an effort to learn how to draw other things, or look up references to help me
I mean I think I've only looked up 2 references in my life ahahah
I do want to get better but I'm just not interested in working to get better lol.
I mean, I'll probably start to soon since I'm getting older and I would like to make a living out of my little hobby (since it's like, the only thing I do anyways)
and if I wanna do that I have to get better.
there are things I want to draw but I can't because whenever I draw I feel like there's someone watching me, judging me.
idk why lol but I try not to draw things or improve because if it looks bad I'll feel embarrassed ?? and then I'll never do it again haha.
I don't like the feeling of being watched, and I hate the feeling of doing something new and it looking terrible.
doesn't help that I have posters next to me, watching me.
I know they aren't real but it still makes me uncomfortable
I lobe those posters though, I don't wanna take them down just cuz I think they are watching me when they aren't even real lmao.
anywayz idk
Ich esse Kinder zum Frühstück
