Funny how every girl out there dreams about their perfect fairytale love life, something I don't understand. I didn't receive the memo saying I was supposed to and how "weird" it was that I didn't yet. I never had any fantasies about love, I have no expectations for it, no standards, no limitations either, nothing was holding me back from doing so, I was the only thing holding myself back, who can blame me though. To be perfectly honest, I have no idea what being in love means, what it feels like, how to even describe it for that matter, because I never been in love. Many People have told me, "oh, you just didn't find the right person yet", and I like to believe they're right, no one has caught my interest, no one seems appealing to me. When I look at a person, I never think, "oh wow they're cute",I actually think nothing of them, I don't know them, I will not set up this fake mental image of them and then lie to myself into believing that that's how they truly are, my own mental image of perfection.
Haha wow ,I sure do go deep into little things like this, I over think to much of even the most littlest of situations. See this is why I can't sleep, because I'm a weirdo and I like talking to myself. Girls don't like to admit it but we DO talk to ourselves, not because we're crazy, but because when there's no one around and you need advice, who better then yourself to give it to you, it gives you the chance to think a loud, vent out,
