Movie night || minsung

Part 59

"were we like that when we started dating?" asked Christopher from next to his lover

"Nah y'all were too shy" changbin replayed and continued not long after

"but now I'm living with two couples i feel so left out, I want a girlfriend so bad"

jisung and Hyunjin looked at each other concerned, they feared that their friend; Felix, would be hurt by these comments. but as they turned to him he saw him laughing, loudly, oddly it was weird, something was different about him...

while looking at his friend jisung felt a hand on his shoulder, making him startle

his boyfriend had already finished the few plates that were left.

"HYUNG you wanna take my place?" the youngest asked, assuming he would want to sit next to his lover,

"no I'm fine, I'm heading to the balcony anyways" he leaned to his partner kissed his cheek, and then started walking to the balcony, he stopped at the door and turned "Felix?" said he before the younger jumped off his sit and ran to him.

the two friends sat in silence for a few minutes each of them having his cigarette between his fingers.

"in the end, none of us was able to stop" laughed Felix referring to a conventional they had had before.

"the past weeks made it hard for me to stop" he sighed softly in a response

"right...to be honest I was not expecting that... I think nobody was...you two..."

"It's all thanks to you you know?" he faced him

"Really? how is it thanks to me?" he question curiously

"you remember that time when you told me fans write stories about me and him? I decided to read some of them, and well it was hard not imagining plots on my, and before I knew it I wanted those plots to be real" laughed Minho

Felix smiled, Minho was found of the story he was telling

"so are you gay HYUNG?"

"well, bang chan Hyung has many girlfriends he is cheating on Hyunjin with i don't think a person is obligated to choose" he laughed referring to the lives he makes with stays.

"yeah" responded Felix, "well to be fair I think he is mostly cheating on them with Hyunjin" he continued grinning, getting a small shackle from the older.

silence filled the place again, a comfortable one, where each one of them was only focused on their thoughts, Felix looking at the grey sky, it seemed like it was going to rain, was it a sad day? he asked himself, he didn't hate rain but he believed that if an unexpected rainy day after a sunny one was because someone in this world was going to have a really bad day, and hoped that that person would find their rainbow after rain

on the other side Minho, a cigarette still in his left hand, was playing his hands, a ring on his middle right finger precisely, it was covering the middle phalange. the ring was given to him by his current boyfriend, not long after they started sleeping together, he never took it off ever since then, it reminded him of him, not that he needed an accessory to remember the boy but he liked the idea of jisung beside him even if a small object represented it, the ring was only taken off when he was sleeping or when he was with the boy himself.

" you know for some people it's hard to figure out their sexuality, and it's even harder to figure out when they love someone, it took me quite a lot to finally ask jisung out. I don't regret taking my time, but I would have regretted not doing it, even if he refused me, although I know he would have." Minho explained calmly breaking the comfort

"Hyung why-"

"you know in most of the stories I read, there were side couples; some really weird ones like chan Hyung and i.n, some with you and chan hyung, Hyun-jin and Seung-min, fan really go wild with combinations, but there was one that was repeated quite often... it was you and changbin, and have always thought it was cute until jisung told me you liked him..."

by then Felix was red embarrassed he was tense, nobody was supposed to know about his feelings for changbin, but now it was more people than expected and if jisung knew it meant that Hyunjin did too which also means chan knows as well, he felt his body melting with embarrassment he wanted to jump off the balcony they were sitting in, but he was too stunned to speak or move, he kept looking at Minho, eyes wide open not even thinking of denying or defending himself.

"don't get me wrong, I still think it's cute but I know it's not an easy thing to achieve... being a couple I mean, know that Changbin is straighter than all of us combined, which is not much since it's only Seungmin and i.n now, it pretty much impossible, no offence"

Felix looked at him trying to figure out what he was on about, he did feel sad about what he said but he knew it was all true, painful truth is better than a pleasant lie as they say, so he continued listening calmly

"I don't want to force you but I think you should tell him, and get it out of your chest, you know having your feeling hidden like that only hurts you. saying it out loud will make you feel better, better about yourself, about your feelings for him and your relationship with him, plus changbin has a good heart he will not hurt you, but In case he does... I know how to fight-" he paused " well no, but my boyfriend does and has more muscles, I'll make him take care of changbin" he laughed

Felix smiled, he felt at ease, the idea of telling changbin how he felt never scared him, he knew changbin was a straight guy and would never be with him, he was never scared of being rejected, he just never did to not make him feel uncomfortable, he did feel sad when he made comments about hot girls but he can't do anything about it, he mostly didn't care, however, sometimes he couldn't help loving him more than usual, when he helps him out whit things or just make his life easier, on those moments, he had always felt like a liar, for hiding his feelings he felt like he was contently acting and that was a heavyweight... maybe confessing really would make him feel better

"I will give it a try" he announced smiling

"right, take your time, whenever you are ready!"

"thank you hyung!"

"I think we should go back to the others," he said getting up throwing the rest of his cigarette away and leaving Felix back, contemplating the sad sky, debating his thoughts and words.