I can't look I won't look
But I did. Teenage boys and releasing themselves from their sweaters. What sluts they are. I saw your Calvin's and you abs all in a matter of what...5 minutes? on TWO separate occasions. Whore. You're a whore. Who chooses to take a class with all girls? I also didn't find that hot. I should've but I didn't. I found it mildly revolting. You just give it up for anyone that breathes near you?
OH MY GOD. YOU SIT RIGHT BESIDE BLONDIE. HOW COULD I FORGET. it was for her wasn't it? You want her to see your dick too? Innocence.
He's pure innocence. And yet my most vivid dream to date was of you. I wish I was being railed by you in a bathroom at a party high and drunk out of my mind but instead I was stealing your necklace at an exclusive bar.
What does my dream mean?
I think it means I want you but the only way I can have you is by manipulating you. You'd know I was manipulating you and stealing your valuable qualities away from you. It was a simple chain necklaces. I don't pay attention to you enough to know if you wear necklaces or not but I'd did last weak and noticed you didn't wear a necklace. Was it my subconscious trying to tell me I can't have you? Why? It's not like I'd succeed... I don't do my nails. My hair smells sometimes because it doesn't dry properly which is so embarrassing sometimes.
Wait
I don't pay attention to you enough?
I've just registered that you're not that important to me. I barely look for you when leaving my class. I barely look for you when entering our class too. I know you can do better and you will. There's this one super pretty girl between our lockers and I think you two would look good together. We would, but only looks. My rooms a mess and I'm sure hers isn't. I mean why clean my room if I'm never allowed to have people over? A clean room doesn't make me any happier than a messy one does. I've stopped caring.
What's to care about? I love nothing and nothing loves me.
