~You are my problem~
The match was over.
Theboyz lost.
Hyunjae head hung low as he made his way towards his teammates.
You wanted to console him, tell him he did great but when you saw hani, their manager, rubbing his back and sitting too close to him for your liking, all plans to comfort your man were out of the window.
Now, being the rational person you were, you weren't gonna cause a scene over something trivial but all hell broke loose when she pulled him in an intimate hug nuzzling her nose in his neck.
It was obvious about her darm interest in him and hyunjae was being as dense as ever.
You had interrupted their moment just to talk privately with hyunjae, pulling him into a more secluded corner.
"Hyunjae, you need to stop letting your manager be close with such intimacy. She seems to have taken strong interest in you", said y/n.
"I am not in the mood, babe", you should have listened but you went on.
"You are never in the mood but we need to talk about this"
Listen, y/n", ignoring the absence of a nickname u continued.
"That's what you said last week and the week before. We barely spend time and you have excuses already piled up?!", You yelled.
"Not now, y/n", hyunjae had his fists clenched but you failed to notice it.
"Do you even care? I am giving my all in this relationship"
"And I am not?", He stared incredulously.
"Doesn't look that way. You prefer your fangirl an that flirt manager of yours over me. I wanted to tell you about a lot of things but you keep bailing on me! I am your girlfriend, you know?", That was the last straw because his next words shook you.
"Maybe it doesn't matter to me! Stop being so fussy over something so damn childish. You're being insentive and selfish. Hani is as harmless as a fly. Why can't you, for once, understand me", he paused.
"You don't even care about how I feel right now and yet you decided to rant shit about people I care about. Hani isn't bad at all. Your doubtful attitude is something I would prefer living without. Infact, I wish for you out of my life, y/n"
With that he stormed to his team. Your breath hitched at his last statement and you knew the damage had been done.
It was too late to stop him and slowly he was slipping away from your grasp.
You weren't angry, no instead, hurt would be a better word for the swirling emotions. Grief stricken you made your way towards your apartment slamming the door shut, you snak to your knees and let the sorrow take over.
No one was around to hear the resonating sobs. This was the feeling you had before meeting hyunjae. Afterall, you are an orphan and now, the foreign feeling was back, filling your mind with flashes from the past.
Night fell and you looked outside the window with red puffy eyes and cold cheeks. Vivid images of the argument flashed through your mind. A sigh escaped your lips as you stared at the moon.
The argument had escalate into a fight. Nothing physical just lots of hurtful words thrown at each other. You know you should have tried to console him over his loss but then your insecurities mocked you.
You wouldn't have minded until she got extra touchy with him but you know u are the one at fault.
"It hurts", the lump in your throat made it difficult to speak.
"Hyunjae never raised his voice at me, maybe I did take his patience for granted"
You knew you weren't going to get any sleep so you made your way towards the small kitchen and cooked ramen for yourself. The few minutes felt like hours and within that span of times you had realisation knocking into you.
The past month, truly had been spent with you being overbearing.
"I was being selfish like hyunjae had said. The constant need for his full attention, the clingy behaviour infront of his teammates was not what he needed"
You were oblivious to hyunjae exhausted state and look where your absent minded has landed you. Amidst the internal and soft sniffles echoed in the small kitchen.
The untouched ramen was left cold while you placed your head on the table to ease the pain building in there. Your breathing soon evened out and after that slumber had engulfed you.
When you woke up next, you were already paced on your bed. Your eyes stung a bit but you could make out the 4:05 am your clock read on the nightstand.
The heavy hand placed around your waist caused your heart to squeeze while the all too familiar scent that lingered in the room had you turning around in no time.
The locks that fell past his face were still a little wet giving away the fact that he may have just ran here after taking a shower.
The dim light of the moon was enough to make out the red rims around his eyes you regret your out burst entirely.
You gently encircled your arms around his torso and buried your face in his chest snuggling closer. It was silent until he broke it,
"I am sorry, y/n"
Unsure if it was the strain in his voice when he said your name or the fact that he just apologised for a fight he wasn't at fault in but it had you hugging him tighter, afraid that his next words would break you two apart.
'It could be those break up lines where he just apologised first so the other person doesn't feel bad or-', your thoughts halted.
"I love you, please don't leave me", and cue you looking up only to have him staring right back at you with those doe eyes.This man would be the death of anyone.
"Say something, y/n"
You wanted to tell him so many things but your paranoia wasn't helping the situation at all. Your orphan status wasn't benefitting your fears either.
How were you supposed to tell him that your insecurities hit you everytime people questioned your relationship?
"This was a bad idea, I should have stayed home, you need space. I shouldn't have raised my voice, u probably hate me. I couldn't sleep knowing I hurt you so- oh gosh, I'll leave first"
Before he could leave, you held his hand around your waist only to tug him closer. Taking a deep breath you poured your heart out from the silliest errors you had to his importance in your life.
"I have been scared for the longest time now. One day you'll realise how incompatible we are for each other and how far you are from my reach. But I have learnt that there are up and down"
"Thank you, hyunjae for everything you do and I am sorry for all the tantrums I have thrown. I am sorry for-",
"I adore you so stop rambling about what you need to be for me, you are my problem", he chuckled before suggesting.
"I haven't been spending time with you so how about we go to the amusement park today"
Now if it was any other day, you wouldn't have missed this opportunity but his tired eyes were pleading rest so you decided on the last thing your mind could resort to.
"I would rather stay home, have a movie marathon with cuddles and snacks"
Hyunjae plum lips curled up slightly, his eyes staring lovingly at you.
"Sounds like a plan, babe"
It wasn't long before soft snores echoed in the room and lulled you to sleep. As long as, hyunjae was here you'd overcome your problem together. Atleast that is the unspoken promise his intertwined hand told you.
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