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I am 18 years old, 5'3 in height, black hair, fair skin, I'm kind of the shy type. I'm not skinny nor fat just at the middle. I'm not as good as an angel nor bad as the devil. I'm a humorous person when u get to know me. I'm kind of bitchy in the outside but sweet on the inside. They say that I'm that full of pride which is my weakness. I have 1 sibling. We live with our parents in the Philippines. I'm a family oriented person. I don't socialize a lot with people especially popular ones.

That's a lot about me I guess xD

I woke up early, afraid to get late in my first day in college. I took a bath and after that I went to my closet to chose what to wear. I decided to put on a pants, sweat shirt, long necklace and a pair of sneakers. I just wanna be simple as I am.

I ate breakfast together with my family (It's a tradition to Filipinos to eat together especially at dinner time). We're all in a hurry to even bother talking with each other.

After eating I washed my own plate and headed to my room to fix myself. I put on powder and sprayed a perfume and then I'm ready to go.

Our father is the one responsible in taking us to school. I plugged my ear phones on my way there. It was a 15 minutes ride.

I arrived at school and entered the big gates "this is it I'm already in college, omg pls. be good to me" *fingers crossed* I told myself

I roamed around to look for my first class. I was really nervous and I don't know where to go first. The crowd of people are just so suffocating. I started walking but I couldn't find CES 101, my first period. After a while I decided to ask the school guard.

"Excuse me sir, can I ask u something"

"What is it?"

"Where can I find room 101?"

"Just ride a tricycle here and tell him that u wanna go to the dorm"

"Ok, thank you"

I did what he instructed me to do. I arrived there in just seconds. I paid the driver and went inside. I again ask the guard there, where the room was. He pointed it to me.

I entered the classroom. I sat at the middle of the classroom to prevent bad things to happen. If you get closer to where the teacher sees you then your prone to . Anything that you do wrong can make your whole college life a disaster.

The teacher started talking bout the subject's orientation. I was really paying attention, first impressions last as they say. I'm not that friendly so my first subject end without knowing anyone.

The class ended and its time for me to find my next class. I just walked on my way to the campus since it's just meters away.

I found it. I sat in front, I don't know why, a little risk wouldn't hurt much, right?

More and more people filled the classroom. I saw my "friend" I met on the enrollment. Her name is fave, has long black hair, bout 5'3 in height, fair complexion and cute. She sat beside me. We were chatting bout things like everybody else.

After a while a girl walked-in the classroom. She has glasses which really fits her, short hair, 4'10 ft in height (small but cute), has the whitest complexion, flawless skin, and most of all she's very pretty. I was amazed by her. My heart was racing. Giving me butterflies in the stomach. She made me happy.  It was love at first sight. She sat at the back. I stopped myself from staring.

"This is not right" I told myself.

"What?" fave said

"Nothing, I was just thinking something"

" Ohh, Ok"

The teacher have arrived. She started to talk about herself and bout the subject. I can't stop thinking of the girl, if she's looking  at me from the back, if she noticed me awhile ago, what's her name. Many questions in my head. I feel like an idiot thinking bout those things.

" Now, I want you to introduce yourselves in front of the class and tell us why you choose this course" said the teacher

Everyone groaned. Obviously, everybody doesn't like the idea. Then it hit me. 'What the F, why is this happening to me' I covered my face while shaking my head no. The teacher started calling names. I was really nervous, my hands is as cold as ice, I'm shaking. I don't freakin' know what to do and what to say.

After a while the "girl" went in front. She began talking. Her voice was a music in my ear. I haven't even heard anything except her beautiful name, Sasha. Then she looked at me. Our eyes locked for a second. I rolled my eyes to cover up my feelings. I really don't show my soft side. After that she get back to her seat.

Our teacher called my name. 'Is it my turn already!? I hope not to screw this up' *fingers crossed* and started talking. "Hi, My name is Sophie... I'm 17 years old. Uhm.. I choose this course coz It's my biggest dream to manage a hotel establishment someday and hopefully have my own" I glanced at Sasha smiling a bit before going back to my sit. At least I didn't faint xD

The class has ended and its time to take lunch. "Where are we gonna eat?" I asked fave.

"How bout at McDonald's?"

"Great"

We arrived at McDonald and find an empty table.

"What u wanna order?"

"Just a fillet and a coke float, Here" She handed me her money to pay for her food but I didn't took it.

"No, my treat" I smiled at her. I walk over the counter and took our orders. I handed her food.

"Thank you for the treat btw" she said

"No worries, You owe me one" I laughed "Just kidding"

I found about her. She's one of the guys practically because she's the only girl in the family. She knows how to admire girls  beauty coz when she sees one she can't stop talking bout it. I asked her if she's gay but she said no. Well, I'm still in doubt bout it but I let it go anyway. The time went by so fast. It's already time to go back to school.

We're on our way to school.

"What's your next period btw?" I asked

"Math"

"really? Let me see ur sched" She handed it to me. I scanned the entrance slip  "we have same sched for MTh except for first period" We're really going to hangout much.

"Nice!" she said giving me a high five.

School went by so fast. I was really happy I survived my first day. At least I didn't do anything crazy.

I've been thinking of her since I arrived home