Broken Clocks

Chapter Twentyfive

Asia
Couple months later

Pain is bad.

Is good pain even a thing? I mean some people cry when they are happy.

Milio makes me feel pain sometimes. I remember at one point he hurt me so bad I wanted him to kill me so that it could all stop.

He makes me feel good too like when he fucks me and holds me. When he talks to me and asks me about my day. I sometimes like it when he kisses me out of nowhere and he is really gentle. I also like the fact that he gives me everything I want without me ever having to ask.

He is all I've got.

I hate him.

I dust fresh potting soil off my hands then wipe them on a rag. "Birthday girl," I look up from the orchids I am planting to Lucifer who stands before me with a birthday bag in his hands.

I roll my eyes and crack a small smile. Lucifer helps me stand to my feet before handing me the bag. I dust dirt off the knees of my dress before opening the bag.

"You shouldn't have." I pull out a big box of expensive chocolate.

"I just thought you would like something sweet." He smiles looking down at my protruding belly.

I put my hand over it. I almost forgot it was there. A sad smile creeps its way onto my face. I'm about to start crying again.

Pathetic I'm pathetic. Lucifer's smile drops when he sees my lips quiver. "Stop crying will kill me if he sees I've made you cry."

I start to laugh at his sudden change in facial expressions. "No he won't." I wipe the stray tears from my face. He most definitely will. "I'm just- my hormones are all out of wack everyone makes me cry." I lift my eyes up to the sky.

It looks like it's about to rain so I guess I can hold off on watering the orchids.

"Do you want to come inside for some tea or something? I don't want to be rude." I wave to the glass door separating us from the inside of the house.

"No I'm good I will see you later on today, happy birthday beautiful." He gave me a small smile before walking past my guards to the front of the house.

I sigh and do a little more gardening before calling it quits.

When I get back inside the house I am welcomed by the fragrance of cinnamon and vanilla. I love the smell of fall so Milio makes sure that it always smells like it in the house.

Once inside our room I strip out of my dress and get cleaned up and put on a pair of jeans that I can barely fit anymore and a large t-shirt.

I pull my braids up and tighten my ponytail. I stare at myself in the mirror. The long scar on my neck runs from ear to ear, the doctor says that I will always have it. Occasionally I find myself running my fingers along it back and forth during different times of the day.

Milio loves my scar. He says it takes nothing away from my beauty, if anything it adds to it. He randomly peppers kisses over it while fucking me.

I don't hate the scar. It is just a reminder now that I am different, that I no longer exist.

My hand glides down to my belly and it kicks it. I quickly move my hand and place it at my side.

Feeling content with the way I look I sigh and head out of the bedroom completely.

I open the window to the room so that I don't feel locked in. The breeze coming in is gentle and calming. Happy I pile up a bunch of snacks in the middle of the bed and turn the television on.

A big screen sits mounted on the wall above his fireplace.

I sift through the different channels. I decided on watching Bones. I read the subtitles as the characters speak frantic Russian.

I open the box of chocolates Lucifer gave me and start to engulf them. I moan when the chocolate touches my tongue. I think they're European. Europe's chocolate is way better than American chocolate trust me.

"Angel." I turn to the door to see my husband leaning on the door frame. He is dressed casually, white t-shirt and black jeans. My eyes catch the gold cross hanging from his neck.

"Milio." I stand from the bed and run into his open arms. I haven't seen him in three days.

He grabs me and holds me tight. He smells so good, like fresh clean laundry. I stay still and let his hands run along my body. "I have missed you so much Angel." He lets his hand rest on my stomach while giving me a kiss.

I allow his tongue to invade my mouth and move my lips along to his. I pull back and catch my breath.

"I thought you weren't going to be back until tomorrow." I look over to the bed that is covered in snacks. I would have cleaned if I knew he would be back so soon.

"I came back early. I want to give you your birthday present." My smile drops. I don't usually like Milio's presents. "Don't worry you will love this one."

He looked down at me with a small smile that wasn't creepy. He looks to the door. "Dog." His accent wraps around the word almost making it sound foreign.

Quickly walks in a tall Doberman. The dog looks mean with one side of his face battered. I immediately coo at the site of it but keep my distance beside Milio.

"He is so big." I look at Milio with a smile. The dog is tall enough to be at my hip.

"He was a rescue, he is fully trained." Milio looks down at the dog and reaches his hand out and pets it. "He will fully protect you at any sign of a threat. He can be vicious. He is familiar with your scent. You are his master."

"What is his name?" I let my hand softly graze the top of the dog's head. He melts into my touch, going at ease. He is kinda cute.

"Whatever you want it to be." Milio looks at me searching my eyes.

"I love him. I think I want to name him Zuko after the guy in Avatar." I laugh at the name. The large Doberman sits and rests on the carpet out in front of us.

"I am glad you're happy with him." Milio's hands wrap around my waist and rest on my belly. "He is getting bigger." I don't react to what he says. I don't care.

I would rather ignore it until it gets here and I can no longer avoid touching it. Milio stares into the side of my face. "You won't always be able to overlook him. You will make a great mother." He kisses the side of my neck right below my ear.