Her name was Sam

Good and bad

I wasn't a very smart person. I don't think I was a very good person either. I think I just needed someone to talk to after everything that happened. I can't remember many things that happened to me as a kid. All I remember are the good moments of life when I was with my friends or my sister and even my brother. My favorite moment of my life was the time when we went bowling. I was always happy when we did something like that. It was just me, my siblings, and my mom Having fun and being competitive. The worst moment of my life was when somebody yelled at me. It didn't matter who, they told me they were disappointed with me and I felt like my body was on fire and my tears were burning my face that's how it felt. Over the years I would realize I will lose many of my friends. It was all because I couldn't speak. I was too afraid that I would say the wrong thing and they would hate me and I just made it worse because I didn't talk back to them. I still talk to some of my friends. The best night of my life wasn't my first kiss, it was the night I realized I fell in love with someone else. It was at my girlfriend's party. We were hanging out watching horror movies. It was a very fun night. We had fake fights and had fun and ice cream. I realized that I fell in love with her because she made me happier than my actual girlfriend ever could. Even when we kissed I wasn't happy with her, my girlfriend makes me angry a lot. Sometimes when I just hear her voice it makes me upset. The person I fell in love with is funny and flirted with me. It made me really happy because it told me at least someone would try to flirt with me and I would flirt back sometimes. I never got to know if she really liked me. Not because I never told her, I did but because I couldn't tell if she thought I was joking. I wanted to try and fix my relationship with my girlfriend but I never go to it. In 2024 I died. I was seventeen. I killed myself. I overdosed on pills and died.