Words In The Dark

if i knew what to say

12 ways I would've combatted my fathers hurtful words, if I knew what to say

One:
He says "I wish your life was going worse, so that you would come back home"
I would say : "the same one you kicked me out of for not conforming to your beliefs?"

Two:
He says : "I think you're on more drugs than just weed"
I would say: "dad, you must be looking at your own reflection because that was you at 20, not me"

Three:
He says: "Alyssa, with my faith, I know I'll make it to heaven, I hope you find your faith. So that I see you there one day"
I would say: "dad,
dad I really love you but with the upmost disrespect, WHY, and I mean WHY are you okay with jeffree damer possibly sitting in heaven but your daughter who never slaughtered anyone burning in hell for non-belief"

Dad! I mean Four:
He says: "you know, that boyfriend of yours is not motivated. Unfortunately, you're gonna have to lead that relationship"

I would say: " what's wrong with that? Didn't you teach me that was the way to act?"

Five:
He says : "I love you but..."
I would say: "you can't say 'I love you but..', because whatever comes after is going to be negative which completely negates the 'I love you'

Six :
He says: "you're mad that he told you the truth"
I would say: "No. I'm mad that you sit back and let your best friend tell me  'you're democratic because you're a woman', as if every democratic president hasn't been male.

You let him reduce me down to my sex. Sometimes,
I think you hate me for that.
because you,

Six:
because you say: you hate democrats.
because you say:

Seven:
because you say: you want to round up democrats like dominoes and unload

Eight:
So you say: you hate democrats, and associate women with democrats, and want to murder all democrats. So which side am I on during that?

Nine:
"I love you"
it's hard for me to say it back when you make me think like that
P.S. to Number Six: "I love you but..." and "I'm not sexist but..." are the same thing

Ten:
You say : "I think it's slightly the woman's fault if she got raped"
I would say: "if it happens to me, is that what you'd say?"

Twelve:
You say: "if you have an abortion, don't tell me about it"
I would say: "you're the only person I have. Mom left us this way."