A Deal with Her

Chapter 3

Estella's POV
I don't really remembered much of what went down just last night. Cordelia had stated I blacked out. But for the most part it's all just a blur to me...

I know I was playing hide and seek with seven other girls, one of which being Cordelia and that entire time I wasn't feeling that great. I personally shrugged it off as it just being as simple as my body being tired, but looking back on it, it was genuinely a warning that I wasn't okay and needed to get some sort of help. I know that now, that's the main thing.

Before everything became a blur, or just a blank void in my mind, my chest began to severely ache in so many different ways that I didn't even know a human could feel. My heart was rapidly beating fast, but that could've been as a result of me running away from Cordelia. My body started to feel really stiff. My stomach was twisting and turning... tightening....And you know that sensation you feel when you're going to throw up? That's what my mouth felt like. I'm not sure why I thought all of this was a result of my body being so tired. It was such a dumb thought and looking back on it, it was absurd of me to not warn somebody.

I remember not being able to breathe properly... and the rest... I'm not even sure. If I think hard enough maybe I can think of something else that I felt.

My body! After my breathing decreased, my body fell stiff and I couldn't move. Why? Who knows... not even the doctor understood why. All my checkups became negative, proving there wasn't anything wrong with me. But why did I feel so weak and vulnerable to the world around me? I'm barely able to lift a singular finger. This is not normal and I'm afraid of what may happen.

Something deep in the back of my mind is telling me that I'm going to die. But I don't want to die.

Right now all I want to is do nothing but sob, but the energy is drained. Most of the time the struggle to keep my eyes open is unreal. If this is what dying feels like, I don't want it.