u-ur alive... (dekubaku)

the suicide

They are in middle school btw

Bakugo's pov

Bakugo: it was the weekend so i decided to watch the news and after some few minutes later of talking about a typhoon coming they finish and switch to the ua entrance that it will be starting very soon i was excited ofc but yet i still didnt made deku stop believing on becoming a hero and if he joins he will die because of those stupid robots they make i got a bit worried and i start to think on how to make him give up and doesnt join the ua entrance exam my mind went spinning again and my mind is telling me to just let him die but ofc i wont let that happend that easily i feel asleep and wake up and it was monday so i start getting ready for school my mind went spinning again when i was going to school and class i cannot focus on my studies either when that stupid teacher was teaching the ua exam is tomorow and yet i still havent even made him stop believing on becoming a hero after school me and those asshole's so called friends starts to bully him again to be honest i really hated bullying him but this is for for him to stop entering that exam and die there then my mind said (why not make him hate u mabye tell him to suicide) aint no way i was actually doing that shit i would never that would make him even more dead than ever

FUCKING DAMMIT WHY CANT I KEEP THIS MOUTH FUCKING SHUT I BLURRED IT OUT WHY DID I JUST DO IT NOW HIS GOING TO FUCKING KILL HIMSELF AND DIE FUCKING DAMMIT my mind went spinning again and i run to the stairs and got to the top and looks around if i see any dark hair boy on one of those buildings i start panicking and finally i saw someone close to the edge i use my quirk to get in there to the other building and scream "OI NERD WHAT EVER U ARE DOING DONT CONTINED IT WHATEVER I SAID BACK THERE WASNT TRUE ASSHOLE" he quickly look at me with a smilling crying face and said "tell my mother i love her okay? I love u too kacchan but if u wanted me gone ill just do what u always wanted" and then he jumps i run after him and was about to jump after him but i felt someone hold me from behind

It was those two idiot's!!!
"WHAT ARE U DOING LET ME GO FUCKERS HIS GOING TO DIE!!!!" as i scream and the gray hair said "why are u so worried about him and besides u will be the greatest hero of all time and he wont even bother u anymore without him he wont be able to distract u from ur goals on becoming the no.1 hero and besides didnt u wanted him to be gone already and besides ur just wasting ur life to save his quirkless ass" i went slience for a moment and then i scream "SO WHAT IF HE DISTRACT ME HIS LIFE IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN BEING THE NO.1HERO NOW LET ME SAVE HIM ASSHOLES" two were just laughing while holding me tight i dont know how they are strong then they made me close to the edge and there i saw deku...

I was so late i was so fucking late my eyes were watery and these two were just laughing while holding me then the black hair boy said "HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA ahh im kind of glad he was gone for good great job bakugo u made him suicide with ur amazing fucking words and if ur wondering why our hold is more strong than u thought it would be because we were training just to save ourselves from ur exploding shit and when u said to kill himself we knew this was the right moment to kill him off we knew the look at ur face were so worried after u said it so we follow that shitty nerd and waited u to come and save him and we will grab u and let him die he was so annoying we had to get rid of him somehow" i went silence as i heard the abuelance were taking him they let go of me and they were walking away but suddenly i was raging mad i started a big explosions and exploded them both they were both passed out and was almost bleeding to death i didnt care if i did that they deserve it so i just run off and go to where deku hospital is as i sat down and waited for a nurse or a doctor to come out they impact did i stand up looking worried and said "how is he doc?.."

the doc said he was losing alot of blood and might end up in a coma for days month's or even years then i felt something in my spines and felt my mouth dry then i started crying with a shock face then the doc insisted that i should see him and so i did i saw him laying down in the hospital bed with alot of lobes and shits on him i went closer to him and hold his hand and i started to tear up and went apologezing for alot of time

An hour later My parents and auntie inko got here to the hospital and they ask me what had happend and i was just silent because my mind was still spinning and telling me alot of things like (great job katsuki u finally made him gone) (ur fake friend is finally gone u dont even have to worry anymore) (u can be thw no.1hero now without any distraction great job for making him gone) and alot more i didnt rven wanted this to happend it just slit up to my mouth because of my overthinking i wasnt thinking straight so mabye thats why i suddenly said that after i stop thinking and fnally calm down i finally said everything to them explaining how i made him killed himself and i deserve any punishment they will give me but they were just shock and silents while auntie inko cried even more i was told to go home and discuss this later but yet still i didnt and still yet stayed at the hospital auntie inko went inside while i waited for a while and fell asleep at the waiting chairs

It was 6:44pm and my parents left while i was still asleep then someone woke me up and it was auntie inko she said i should go home and rest but then i said "im really sorry auntie if i didnt do all that then we would have been good friends and he wouldnt just die just like that i deserve any punishment u will give me i deserve it" i said it while looking at her swallow red eyes face then she finally talks "i wont punish u katsuki it is not my property to slap another child even if i got the permission to do it i wont still do it but if u were trying to stop him becoming a hero u should not have bullied my son and tell him to kill himself u should have do it in another way to stop him i wont forgive u that easily but for god sake come here and give ur auntie a hug its been quiet awhile when we last saw eachother and u have grown up already" she intisted for me to give her a hug so i did "im really sorry auntie im really am its okay if u wont forgive me that easily i mean i did made ur son a living hell u can hate me all u want i deserve it" as i spoke while breaking the hug "yes i wont be forgiving u that easily for making my son a living hell but u still have ur reasons and ur just like my child of my own i want to hate u but i really cant just hate u" as she said while sobbing i dont deserve her loyalty honesty kindness and more she is too nice even tho i just told her son to kill himself

We talk for a while and i enter the room and hold his hand again and i saw a familiar bracelet he was wearing

It was the friendship bracelet he made for the both of us when we were at 5th grade that it was a gift from hm that i didnt accept i felt my mouth dry again and cries again and went apologezing for hours again to him when the nurse said we should come back tomorow again because they need to close the hospital and only the employies are aloud to stay here for some reason and we did but i took the friendship bracelet he made and wear it as i got home ofc i got alot of lecture and a slap ofc and my dad<idk the nickname he give for him sorry> trying to stop old hag from hitting me i deserve that slap i deserve to die i dont even know why he still needs to stop her from hitting me i just bullied someone and told them to kill themselves after hours of lecture i went in to my room and lock it then my mind went spinning again (kill urself) (ur a shame to the family) (u dont deserve to live) (u dont deserve to be a hero) and alot more i found myself exploding my head and u was bleeding so i bandage myself and went to bed because i need to be early for tomorow because tomorow was the ua exam's and i thought of something ( thats it! i just need to be a hero for izuku ill be the no.1hero for him) and went to sleep

Chapter 1 done