I am Ces, a Lawyer. Going back to my Highschool and College days. I'm not that smart Actually, my grades in academics are low. I am also not the type of student who is active in class. I'm the type of student who doesn't like to participate in contests. I prefer being alone than with people when doing projects. My fellow students also tease me because of being alone as a student.
I also like to fight, that's why many people say that I'm a trouble maker which is not true,cuz I only fight when I can't keep calm when they tease me. I'm also not joining as top 1 in our class. Sometimes I'm too lazy to study. I'm an introvert but I'm friendly with trasferees, I have no intention of getting serious about studying because I am struggling with my subjects so I just told myself that life will take care of it.
I only got serious about studying when I found two inspirations, inspiration that would push me to get serious about studying. My two teachers pursued me to study hard. Ma'am Auds and Ma'am Roms. They are the two teachers that pursued me. By the way, I went to high school at ICSB, actually I went from nursery to high school there. Studying at ICSB is not a joke, not because the exams are difficult but because I had many fights with my classmates.
I still forced myself not to focus on my classmates who fought with me. I tried to focus on my academics, I studied and studied until I no longer noticed that I was neglecting my mental health. Because of the pressure on my shoulders, my way of thinking has changed. It was always in my head that I needed to enter academic honors to impress the people around me, because of that I didn't realize that I was slowly getting mentally drained.
Until there was a pandemic and our school decided to have online classes during the pandemic. At first I thought I could do it, my general average was good in the first grading, but when the 2nd grading started, I was a bit difficult. I did my best, but my best wasn't good enough.
When I didn't get into the honors in my first year in the online class, that's when I started having anxiety, depression and overthinking. That's when I realized that it's hard to fight the anxiety and fear that it might happen again. That's why when we were in the online class again in our second year, I was afraid to enroll because what if I couldn't do my best again to get into the honors class.
And I'm afraid to be told again that "She was academic honor when she was in grade 1 to grade 5, but why is she not included in the honor now?" I was afraid to try to the point that I just cried to my teacher, she is the one who knows what is going through my mind at that time. She knows what my thoughts and problems were back then. I cried differently that time, the type where I cried like a child throwing tantrums.
When I found out and they announced that there will be blended learning and that Face to Face classes will be brought back, my overthinking gradually disappeared.
I did Student Assist to forget my problems... Until I heard that there was a Parents Orientation that would take place at our school, that's when I had the chance to see again the person who pushed me to study, I wanted to hug her because it's been a long time we haven't met.
When I saw her and talked to her, I realized that it was the first time I smiled again after almost two years. The joy I felt when I first talked to her again was different. That's when I started to be inspired by her. When it came to my teacher, she was the type of teacher I had never been close to before. but since we went back to face to face, that's when I noticed that we were getting close.
Our Principal, Ma'am Auds, is the type of principal who doesn't seem to notice the students. She is the type of principal who is strict but always smiles. She's beautiful, as always.
My English Teacher, Ma'am Roms. She is the type of teacher who looks nice but is very strict inside. She is the true definition of the word "Perfect".
And I am proud to say that they both helped me, they also served as my inspiration.
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My Mentor, My Coach, My Inspiration.
Non-FictionDreamed, worked hard, and succeeded. That's how I would describe Ces's life as a student. Started with a small dream until she learned to work hard.. and became successful. Law, her desired profession. With the help of two inspirations, she created...
