(not proofread please ignore my silly little grammar mistakes xx)
I probably should've added a dramatic black cover and an ominous period in the description of this so you knew what was going down but you probably do by now.
When I started this account, I was homeschooled and didn't really do much during the day that was considered productive, I just sat in my bed and binged youtube whenever I was done with the very little work that had been provided to me.
I began this account because I was so mind-numbingly bored of being alone and having the same routine every single day that I wanted to make something that was my own, and share it and interact with people that weren't just my immediate family.
Once I published my first fic on here, I couldn't be stopped, I was ZOOMING! I was ON A ROLL!! I had all the ideas and motivation of not being able to share my creative writing for a year or so, and safe to say, I had improved, and was more open to sharing my work.
Of course, as you can probably tell, I neither have that time nor motivation anymore. I go to an actual school now, I have a good relationship with my friends, and I no longer have all the time in the world or all the brain space in my head to keep this account up the way I used to be able to.
Of course, this was a good thing, but to me, I didn't feel that way at first. I was scared I would lose some of the first online friends I had because I was off making new ones and I no longer had 12 hours a day to work on just writing the content I binged.
This account became a bit of a source of anxiety for me, by my own accord at least. I felt like if I didn't keep this account running with constant updates and interaction then everyone would move on. I've always been open about it, but it's always just been hard to let go of this relic of the past and move toward the future.
However, now, I think I'm finally able to let go, knowing I've made friends on here and that I have ones outside of here to support me on whatever creative journey I choose to take next.
At the very least, I am leaving this account for a couple months, at the most, I'm leaving it behind and never looking back. It depends on how I feel, and of course, what ends up going on in my real life.
I could publish something next week and everything I say here could still be true, I'm just going to play it by ear for now, but as far as I'm aware, this is going to be the end for the immediate future.
I never expected to be where I am, at the point where I feel like I would have people that would care even an ounce about what I do or where I go. I thought one day I would just do everything and drop off the face of the earth, but at this point, with the friends I've made on here, and the people I know consistently check up on my account, I feel like I owe it to them.
I am not going to be deleting this account, nor am I going to be quitting all social medias, if anyone I know from this site specifically would like to stay in touch, my discord, as always, is Toastee!#6985 feel free to send me a request, I'm always down to chat.
The persona of Bird will not be left behind either, despite the fact that it was made as an alt so that my then-group of online friends wouldn't connect the dots between me and this account. However, I won't ask that people who know me call me by something that they aren't used to.
Though, if you'd like, I go by Toasty on all my other platforms.
Thank you for getting me to where I am now, can't believe my silly little empires fixation from a year ago got me to meet such amazing people. If I could do all of this again, I would do it another thousand times. (Idk if I can bear you guys for more then that, though /j)
I'll see you guys later. The Bird is leaving the nest o/
(Feel free to ask any questions. I'll be lurking on here for the next few days because I need to soak up all the scrumptious HC n Empires crossover fics.)
