It was a cold wet night in the city, The bright lit up city stood out like a bright shining star. The air was so fogged up you could barely see anyone else, the echoes and screams of the drunk college kids echoed throughout the narrow road. As I walked along the drenched city streets passing each dead end I noticed the stray cats had come out to eat the scrap food people had thrown on the ground.
Rain slowly dripped down from the clouds like a tap that wasn't turned off well, this didn't stop me from getting soaked. I continue walking in a straight line, people passing and going, the drunks either screaming or vomiting their heads off. Is this the glamourous night life everyone was talking about? I laugh to myself. I'm so glad the lack of friends and social interaction has its upside, though maybe screaming and vomiting with your friends is what makes it so special?
I continue walking when I find myself parched in front of two brawny built men. The flashing lights lit up my dull face, "ID?" One of the men yelled at me. I could barely hear him with the music blasting in the background. I nodded then turned the other direction and continued my walk. I caught a glimpse of the life people post and don't post and wonder to myself what's so special about it? I'd rather be alone than suffocate in a room full of strangers going deaf and blind from the flashing lights.
Somehow I've walked so far I ended up on the edge of the pathway facing the ocean, the breeze freezing everything in its way. I sat down and watched the almost pitch black ocean sway side to side eventually gaining so much power crashing into each other. How could something so beautiful be so harsh at the same time? I sit and reminisce about the life I've lived so far. I'm completely unhappy but at this moment I feel so much bliss, there was no one around apart from a parked car 7 meters away.
I continued watching the waves crashing brutally, my eyes began to water as the air grew colder with time. I took my phone out of my pocket and looked at the time, I've been sitting here for 2 hours? I brush the thought away and stuff my phone back into my pocket. I feel like the waves are a perfect reflection of what my life has become. Evidently brutal, so much built in hatred for myself I clash with myself. Though, some days I feel calm and swift like the sways of the ocean coming ashore.
I watch in awe as I feel like I've finally found something like me, I lay down facing the ocean as my eyes become heavier. The sounds of the ocean whooshing around puts me to sleep instantly.
Here I am, alone but I feel as though I've made a friend. Someone I can confide in and trust with everything I have in me, I awaken without hesitation and jump into the deep black seas. This feeling in my chest, my heart pounding like the rapid waves crashing around me. I couldn't be happier than I am right now. I slowly but surely sink deeper and deeper into the darkness of the ocean, I close my eyes and I smile.
