Never enough(Poem book)

ALWAYS

I think I'm alway going to crave pain
in the form of love
I wait for an excuse
to throw bombs
while I prepare myself to dodge bullets because all I've known is warfare
all I've felt are wounds

my heart is on edge waiting for next time
it trips and falls into disappointment
but the real disappointment
is how I expect all of this
from you

we have to cut open other people and you have stitched me up so well
you've healed me from all the scrapes and bruises that you did not inflict
but here I am
weapons raised
waiting for a reason to attack

I found I do not regret lightly in love
I will have my knife in my back pocket ready for the fight
so please
when you find yourself bleeding
don't say I didn't warn you