How it all ended

But mom! - H

Yeah he was surviving, but his mom didn't think that was enough. "Mom, I'm a grown man I can decide what I want to do." He tried, but deep down he knew his mom was as stubborn as he. "H, sweetie, ofcourse you can decide for yourself, I just think it would be good to do something besides eat, sleep, work. It's not healthy! Just come with us on this weekend trip to london. You know we haven't done something together in ages! I think Gemma would love it if you tagged along." Thinking back to all the memories they made on their trips that they made as children he really did want to go. He didn't know if he was ready for it though. "Next weekend, right? I will think about it. I will let you know before thursday, alright?" He could hear his mom smile through the phone. He never said he'd think about it, always declined saying he was too busy. He started saying that near the last year of the band. They were indeed extremely busy, all overworked, but management only cared about getting the last drops of money out of them. He fell asleep with tears in his eyes thinking about all the horrible things they had to go through because of a five year old signature.

Waking up doing the same routine he has been doing since he has gotten this job. Locking the front door with the same thought as always, It's just another day, just have to keep this smile on for a few hours. No one can know anything. Arriving at work just to fake a smile till he got to his office. Work his ass off and then at the end of the day get back and cry himself to sleep. An extra tear for the familiar feeling, but no one has to know that.

He woke up feeling the same as always. Looked at his phone seeing that is was thursday. "Shit! Aaah fuck. I can't, I have to. Shit, shit, shit." He did the same routine, but this time with a whole lot more 'fuck' and 'shit''s. He had to let his mom know today. He promised her. He would feel too bad for not going, but he didn't know if he could face his mom and sister.

After another day of work, he forced himself to call his mom.

Hey mom.

H, you didn't forget!

Nope.

So are you coming with us?

uh... He knew he basicallly had to now. His mom sounded so happy at the idea. Yeah, yeah I am.

That's amazing! Should we pick you up on the way?

mmh yeah that would be great.

Gemma is going to be so happy. Oh I have to go sweetie, see you saterday?

Yes yes, bye.

He quickly hung up before his mom could say anything else. He didn't feel great. Tired, hungry, nauseous and he felt as if all the bones in his body were ten times heavier. Was it too late to cancel this trip and dissapoint his family?